u/negativecreep-med

I’ve been thinking for a long time about joining the navy as a physician and am preparing to enter EM residency next year.
Looking at benefit programs my understanding of FAP is every 1/2 in residency is a 1/2 year active duty, but minimum 2 years active. However, 8 years total service commitment not including time in residency. So if I go down this path and take the minimum 2 years active I’d be in the reserves for six more years.
I’m assuming I could extend active duty to cover these years but if after two years I realize I hate active duty how time consuming and career limiting is the navy reserves? Would civilian employers be less likely to hire me due to the risk of me being deployed?

As a student I am having trouble critiquing myself each shift. Besides saying “improve presentations, notes, physical exam, etc” I am not sure what to say. I can only say “work on presentations” so many times before it looks bad like I am not improving. Any advice for areas I should consider as part of self evaluations? I know this is probably dumb but I have no idea what my preceptors are looking for me to say.

How am I supposed to continue on if I probably failed step2??? I’m just supposed to keep going and doing my first audition rotation as if nothing is wrong? On top of my romantic life being the most painful thing I’ve ever experienced?? Just everything is absolutely devastating but I’m supposed to be at the top to my game??? No. life is shit and I feel awful. Fuck all of this. Fuck medical school. Fuck life. All of this is disgusting and I don’t want to even be a doctor anymore. I hate the patients and my classmates and everyone I’ve ever met. Fuck me and fuck you.