I paired him with my Citlali and the overall team is Neuvi, Citlali, Sucrose, and Fischl. No, I don't own both Furina and Xilonen. My Neuvi's not that strong enough even though I already have his sig weap. Pls help.
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me and my college classmates (orr let's just use the word blockmates) have a gc since our university requires us to have one. before anything, i randomly asked if there were any bars around the area that i could go to because i was looking for some places. girl 1 responded, but it wasnt really a back and forth conversation, which is completely normal for a group chat.
then that same person sent another message that was actually meant for another classmate of mine, but my dumbass thought it was meant for me, so i responded to it. girl 2 then replied saying 'girl that message wasnt for you' and girl 1 and girl 2 laughed about it in the gc. it honestly didnt bother me that much, but i responded anyway and i guess i was being awkward because i didnt really know how to respond in a snarky way. i continued trying to send messages and get myself involved because i was trying to make friends, but girl 2 kept being snarky toward me.
then after that, one of my blockmates asked who wanted to be added to a separate gc where ppl could just send random or silly stuff and talk about whatever. i said i wanted to be added too, but i wasnt added. i know it couldve easily been accidental or they couldve just forgotten about it, and i dont want to make a big deal out of something so small, but i cant lie, it did make me overthink a little.
it made me think, am i really that awkward of a person whos bad at making friends??
honestly i did have friends growing up. i had a circle and people i would hang out with, but i was never really the person people would reach out to first. i wasnt the person someone would randomly message just to tell me about something that happened in their life, talk to me about something random, or ask to hang out one on one.
(actually, back in my first year at my former college, before i dropped out and eventually came back as a freshman again, i didnt really have a circle at all. even the quiet people had their own circles, while i had none. i had no one to walk with through the hallways of the university, no one to casually sit with, or anyone i could just turn to during breaks. i was basically on my own while everyone else seemed to have at least someone they could naturally be around.)
what makes me think about it even more is that ive seen my friends do exactly that with other people. theyll randomly message my other friends, bring them up in conversations, talk to them about random things, or look for them when theyre not around. ive always noticed that dynamic but never really had it myself.
so i guess my actual question is whether im just overthinking all of this because i havent found people i naturally click with yet, or if there are actually things about the way i socialize that make it harder for people to become close to me.
i dont mean this in a way where im blaming my friends or saying people owe me attention. i know people have different personalities and different levels of closeness with each other. im just genuinely curious because ive noticed this pattern for years and now that im starting college again and actively trying to make friends, im wondering if theres something i should understand about the way i interact with people.
so i guess what im really wondering is whether im just not a very charismatic person. not necessarily in the sense that im unlikeable, but maybe i dont have that quality that makes people naturally want to approach me, talk to me, or think of me when im not around. maybe im too awkward or quiet, or maybe i just dont know how to make people feel comfortable enough to become close with me. i genuinely dont know, and thats what ive been trying to figure out.