I graduate tomorrow and I ruined my face
Hi, I’ve posted in here like once ever before but I just feel like there’s nothing I can do to help myself like I’m a lost cause I cannot wrap my head around why I do this to myself.
I graduate tomorrow and I’m going to have my hair and nails done, I found a dress I like, my friends and family are going traveling to see me. And on top of that, my skin started looking clear just yesterday, right in time for graduation.
Today when I got back to my place I went to fix my makeup and that turned into me grabbing tweezers and dissecting the pores on my nose and chin for an hour and a half. My face hurts, it’s red, raw, bleeding, and I really messed up. Why did I do that.
I have spent well over thousands of dollars on skincare, dermatologist visits, aesthetics treatments, everything. I care SO much about my appearance and yet I throw it all away for. no. reason. It’s the same result every time, I always regret it and I come back and do it again why???
Even while my face was bleeding and I was so angry and frustrated I went to go look more to see if I missed any like what the hell is wrong with me.
ALSO. I’ve been on fluvoxamine for about a month now and I was hoping that would help with the OCD side of it a bit and honestly I feel like nothing has changed. I am not joking when I tell you I have tried everything. This is ruining my life.
Idk. I’m just crying now.