sponsor told me something really discouraging
i’ve been trying to be sober for about two months now. i’ve had a few slips here or there-smoking weed a few times and one half glass of white wine. nothing truly bad happened during any of these relapses, i simply felt a little high/drunk for two hours then fell asleep. when i told my sponsor about the last relapse (half a glass of white wine), they told basically told me that i am not willing enough and “maybe you need to go out and have something really bad happen before you are ready to fully commit to this program.” maybe im being too sensitive but i felt like this was a really callous and ridiculous thing to say because, ive already experienced a lot of negative stuff due to my use and don’t want to experience any more. I don’t want anything worse to happen and feel like this comment was a real slap in the face.
i want to be sober but this experience has really soured me to the program, this sponsor and the general attitude and evangelism of many in the program. I’m not sure how i should proceed.