Do I actually like my crush ?!!
Soo I m almost 20 and I have never had a bf . It’s always been a dream of mine to be in a relationship and love in love like everyone else . Lately my childhood family has been popping up in mind . I would say day dream sometimes thinking ‘oh what If we were to date or fall in love’ . It just sounded like something that is illegal cuz I have known him since I was 4 or 5 . It was just a harmless dream, just for fun . But now I can’t stop thinking abt him .
I have dreamt abt him several times and when I see him real life , I keep thinking abt it .
Even tho I have known him all my life I was way closer to his younger brother and this dude is older to me by 3yrs . Hence we didn’t really spend much them together anyways and I don’t see why should like him. Now that I m back home from college cuz we have vacations , I keep on waiting to see him and annoyed my mom by asking when we were going to his house . I always talk him when our whole family is there never alone and it’s never really taking per se it’s usually him saying a joke and me laughing . Only this Dec when I came for winter vacations , he came to ask how was my college and the gossip of ppl dating n all . This I think he came just to hear the tea not to talk n shit .
Later we went for a movie as well my siblings and his younger brother all together (nothing spl) . But my stupid Brain is like there’s something and I know he can never like me .He sees me as the kid he grow up with and am not even his type or can be seen the prettiest. I am just a normal dark skinned girl which is often considered ‘not attractive’. What do I do ?!? Do I actually like him or am tooo desperate that my brain is just forcing itself to like someone ?! Cuz i badly crave for love and relationships?!
Sorry it’s too long 😭😭