26 and doesn't feel "adult" enough yet
Hi! I'm 26 and I don't feel "adult" enough yet. I still feel childish and not mature. I've been in the workforce for almost 5 years (since start of 2022). My career trajectory is basically public accounting firm for 3-4 years then working for my parents.
Why is this relevant? Because I thought working will force me to get more mature! I worked in this public accounting firm until my title is "senior", so I have people under my care, and still I'm not becoming more mature. Right now too, working with my parents, my title is "manager" and I have people under my care but still it doesn't make me more mature.
My immaturity really shines through my communication with other people and my mindset too. I communicate childishly and my mannerism is childish too (I am very "manja" to my friends -all girls-, my family, and my boyfriend). My communication skills are also very bad, I don't think I'm professional enough, like the way I communicate is not professional. For example, I have a staff under my care and I was dissatisfied with his performance and so I scold him, but when I let other people see how I scold him (text), they said it's like I'm scolding my boyfriend instead of my staff. I think both my previous workplace and my current workplace is very lenient towards my communication style and my behavior in general.
My emotional stability is also not that good? Someone mature and professional in my mind, can take control of their emotion and keep themselves level headed even when they are really stressed and angry. But I can't do this, I cried a few times because I'm just so angry...
I just want to know if this is something I can fix and how would I be able to fix it? Or is this just a personality trait?