I don't know what to do, please help
Hello everyone,
Me(22f) and my boyfriend (24m) have been together for six years. We basically grew up together.
Throughout our relationship he would admit that he watches porn, and at first I would ask him to stop. After a while I would freak out when I found out that he was lying and still watching.
I thought he stopped watching porn.
Well, about a month ago, I got this bad feeling that something is up. I decided to check his computer, and I couldn't find anything. Then I decided to go look what he is talking to chat gpt about and oh boy.
My whole relationship is a lie. He was not who I thought he was.
He has been watching porn this whole time, not just the "normal stuff"...but it would get worse and worse.
He would constantly check out other women, turn his head, fantasize about them, make up scenarios in his head......he would even get fixated on his coworkers and fantasize about them, about my friends as well.
There was a period when he got so fixated on this girl because she showed interest in him, that he would often imagine her instead of me. For instance what he talked about with chat is that when we went to a museum, he would fantasize how much better it would be if she was here with him and so on....
I found out a lot of his secrets, he has been trying to be transparent and truthful, but still fails to live up to it completly, often lying in my face.
Yesterday he told me that the reason he always checks out other women could be that he doesn't find me *that* attractive. He compares me to them. He finds me pretty, but finds other women much more attractive and interesting. Even the ones who don't have "better" atributes than me, he finds them more attractive because they are not me, they are something new.
I must say, as far as I know he hasn't watched porn or pictures of other women for at least a month and a half, but struggles with checking out women and intrusive fantasies.
I don't know what to fucking do, he broke me.
Please help guys