u/noroom4mediocrity

Having a jealous mother is so weird! You can't share anything nice about yourself or others to her because she will make you feel bad about it.She will make you feel bad for prioritizing yourself and taking care of yourself.She will look for a reason to mock you when she sees you happy.She will downplay your achievements and when you're struggling she will willingly watch you suffer and blame you for it knowing she has resources to help you.The worst part is when you don't fix these mother wounds they will walk with you even in friendships and relationships.I'm so done! If you have an abusive or jealous mother please decenter her and fix these wounds before it ruins you

This is a small rant I wanted to make,I'm writing with a lot of anger

I stopped listening to music so whenever I feel bored I listen only to classical music and now the voices in my head are playing mozart and baroque music 24/7.I can't help it and I dance to it sometimes which is funny to me

How does someone start becoming a hitman(as a woman) Do you start by visiting gun ranges or do you 1st go through the army?Asking for research purposes

There's this girl I was friends with years back,she was literally my childhood best friend but at some point she stopped talking to me for no reason and was a bit shady and I changed my number.I also deleted my social media because of my mental health at that time and came back after a year.

All of a sudden I see her following me.I am so scared omg what do I do,should I block her? This girl also knows my parents,she is the closest friend I have ever had in life time.I have other good friends now but nimepanic,what do I do?

A lot of things have changed with time and I can't remember exactly what happened since we last talked but I feel uncomfy after seeing that notification

I wish there was a place I could stay between life and death because I feel tired of living sometimes but I am paranoid and for that reason I don't want to die

Is a citizen allowed to go visit a kenyan prison if he/she has no relative in there?I want to do a visit and want to know if I will be allowed to get in

What is recommended to do if perhaps you have a friend or dated someone who intends to be a serial killer or has threatened/fantasies to kill or might have done that before without you knowing but on the surface they are really nice,supportive and never did you wrong.

They even protected you in certain circumstances and you had good moments together and shared stories.You're just a side character in their life but you have never involved yourself in criminal activities with the person.What does the Kenyan Law say about situations like this when the person is identified?

If they actually never did anything but imagine they might do something like this,what would you do?

Take note there's no evidence of anything but they told you few stories

I know we usually believe that there's a supernatural being that watches over us and believe he has control over everything but guys I think there's also multiple beings which are always watching us besides God himself and we can't see them.I don't know if it's our late ancestors who are watching over us but there are spirits always watching us I can feel it.We are not alone.The selected few can sense and see those people.Most people cannot but I can feel it

I got into an argument with my parents and they told me to move out.

I come from a dysfunctional household where my parents divorced and I was raised with my mom and stepdad.It was not a healthy environment and I always wanted to move out since I was young but in my late teens I was diagnosed with a mental illness and was under treatment for a month and left unmedicated till date.

I grew up sheltered and isolated in that environment and decided to choose a uni which was far from home and my parents accepted me to go there although I had a pending scholarship which was withdrawn because my parents didn't want me to move abroad.I did a diploma instead which ended quickly because of the change in curriculum and waiting for graduation.

I decided to look for a job and I had gotten 3 referrals but since I was not in my hometown,my relatives and parents complained that I have to go back home and there's no where I will go besides home.They also gave me restrictions when I stayed with them.e.g.I could not wake up very early and they also went to check in with the HR when I did my internship.

I have not been feeling well and after telling my relatives they said that I am acting so I that I can manipulate them.My stepdad also told me "we are not taking you to a doctor" and my mom said she does not have medical insurance or money(everytime I tell her about it she says this) but she still buys expensive and unnecessary things for herself like extra house furniture.At times she says it embarrassing to have a mental illness and I can't go to the doctor until she says so and I am not allowed to talk about it.

Today in an argument they said if I cannot work I should find somewhere to stay.I still don't understand what they mean because we have people to assist in their business and at home and I do assist where I can.They also told me to tell them where I want to stay so that they can take me there.I do not have a stable sense of self but conscious so I am thinking what to do at this state.

After the argument,mom proceeded to compare me to my cousin now what am I supposed to do about this.I don't even know how to feel I am numb right now

Whenever I am talking to a man and he's gentle with me mostly in conversations I become so wet.This also happens when a guy cooks for me or acts gently with me even after a misunderstanding.It turns me on so bad I want to tear that man's clothes and go wild.I just want to chain that man to the bed and arghhh you guys don't wanna know how it feels

Edit:I didn't know what heading to use for this post but the feeling is intense

I requested for an mpesa statement via the my one app twice but I did not receive the password to the pdf document which was sent through email.How do I receive the password to the pdf?

I am 20F struggling with mental health.I was diagnosed years back(and it was hidden from me,I was being forced to take meds without questioning back then)& left unmedicated but I have tried going to therapy visits whenever I got the chance because I come from a strict household.I also come from a family where both parents divorced and remarried when I was young so growing up I had to live and interact with half siblings and step siblings

The issue is my mental health gets worse everyday and also because of the strict environment I have had to isolate from my friends.I struggle to do basic things and my parents keep complaining but when I tell them I don't feel well,they keep ignoring me.I tried telling relatives but I am being told that I am manipulating them and nothing is wrong with me.

They also like keeping tabs with my life,they can't allow me to get a job (unless its where my mom works or within her business)or do anything without supervision or visit a friend.They want me to follow their rules.

My mental health keeps getting worse and I don't know what to do about it.I am becoming miserable & I am tired of masking I just want to be stable and build community with ppl I relate with but I don't even know where to start.I have skills but I can't function so I end up doing the bare minimum to survive the day.

I also fear speaking up because people might come after me.I don't even use social media apart from reddit or keep a low profile because I fear someone might follow up on me whether they are part of my family or not.

Right now I am at home awaiting for my diploma graduation

Edit:My main concern here is being unstable I am also psychotic although I try to hide it but I might snap

I got blocked by two people on my instagram account.Mind you I had no bad intentions but my account was private and had no profile picture but had posts in it.I just liked their content that's all & I don't even know them in real life 😭

I usually keep my account private because I am paranoid and I didn't put a profile pic because I can't maintain one because of my mental issues and changing a lot is draining

I have a lot of energy right now,I keep walking around the house with no reason and don't get tired.I don't feel like sleeping.I feel like everyone is an opposition and people are against me.I feel everything at once.I feel all emotions at once.I am trying to mask and distract myself and I feel like I am going to lose my patience.I feel horrible I just want to punch something until this energy is over 😭