28M | 18 years of daily porn + fapping | Severe weak erection & no morning wood | Getting married in 6 months | Need serious help
Hi everyone,
I'm 28 years old. I started masturbating at age 10, and from 12-13 it became a daily addiction. For almost 18 years I was fapping nearly every single day (around 350 days a year), mostly with porn + vivid imagination. I used to lie in bed the whole day.
My condition right now is really bad:
No real morning wood for the last 10+ years
Erections are weak and lose hardness within 15-20 seconds
Cum is very thin
Flaccid dick looks shrunken (like 2-3 inches, dried kishmish type)
Even after cleaning or light touch, it gets semi-hard but doesn't stay
I tried sex at 18 (virgin both of us) and the girl said I'm not fully hard. At 19, I kissed a girl and came in my pants (she thought I finished). After that humiliation, I never tried sex again. Now my marriage is fixed in the next 6 months and I'm extremely scared and depressed.
I have tried NoFap many times. My longest streak was 13 days, but even then I was watching porn and sexting. Recently I keep relapsing every 2-4 days.
I know my main issues are:
Chronic over-masturbation (death grip + daily use)
Porn addiction (hentai, stories, Japanese porn)
Severe performance anxiety
Question for you guys:
Is this recoverable in 5-6 months?
Should I go full Hard Mode (No Porn + No Fap) or can I do No Porn + limited fap (1-2 times/week)?
What worked for people who had similar severe symptoms (no MW for 10 years, weak erections, thin cum)?
Any advice, routine, or success stories would mean a lot. I'm feeling very hopeless right now but I don't want to ruin my marriage.
Thanks in advance.