Am I too much?
i was assigned woman gender-wise at birth and for most of my life partook in more gender neutral activities or they were solely based on the people around me. I realized in 2021 what the meaning of nonbinary was and noticed while I might biologically be female i dont resonate with the identity of being a woman, i feel more neither gender than any single one at all. Besides that I have always been a yapper (clearly) but I have noticed regardless of the technology or task my friends have been doing/focusing on, or even barely focusing on, they don't listen to me. They have said in joking contexts that I talk too much and ramble and I get that, I also have a hard time listening to them at times but i feel its really not the same intensity of which i feel it (could also be my fault due to how much i say or talk about i guess). But ive noticed even within that I try to make conversation beyond my own feelings or personal ideals and it still seems like my attempt at conversation is sometimes ignored. Not always, but noticeably often. I dont know if I need to dial myself back and be quiet, which I have tried but its just not who I am, how I feel, how I act. I guess it still could be my fault and being overbearing is part of me im just tired of having to repeat myself at times. I dont know what to do to make myself be less stressful and constantly come up with stupid hypotheticals I feel the need to express whether applied to myself, my friends, or another external factor. I just like to talk.