u/noturblahblah

So yesterday, my girlfriend (18F) and I (17M) took the next step in our relationship and had sex for the first time. It was the first time for both of us. It was completely consensual, we had talked about it beforehand, used protection, and she was really sweet throughout the whole thing.

​The problem is how I’m feeling right now. Ever since it happened, I just feel this overwhelming sense of guilt, and I don't even know why. When I look at her or talk to her now, things just feel... different. It's like the emotional spark we usually have shifted into this weird, hollow feeling. We were texting earlier today and the conversation felt so forced on my end, even though she was acting completely normal and happy.

​I don't love her any less, but I feel like I ruined the "innocence" of our relationship or something? I thought losing my virginity would make us feel closer, but instead, I just feel detached and anxious.

​Has anyone else experienced this post-sex guilt or shift in emotions? How do I get past this without hurting her feelings?

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Sorry if this reads a bit weirdly, I was too anxious to form proper sentences so I used Gemini to help me structure my thoughts.

When I try to mastutbate there is a constant pressure, suddenly formulaes appears out of nowhere

I can't even masturbate peacefully

Fuck you jee

There was this time in 10th grade when I used to masturbate without any guilt and pressure

I don't hv any books

Where can I find solutions

Are there any video solutions or Smthng

The marks app soln are bit tough to understand