u/noxummm

so after around 10 years in and out of the pagan/witchcraft sphere searching for something that 'fit', i've finally landed on atheopagan as a label that fits my spiritual beliefs. i've been trying to integrate witchcraft back into my life in a way that makes sense for my lack of a belief but i haven't found a way of doing it that doesn't feel like just wasting my time. i'm still working on it because i remember witchcraft being so fun when i was really in it. i was thinking about this today while at work and looking back fondly on my baby wiccan days and just thinking something along the lines of "man i wish i could just be wiccan again, everything was so simple and beautiful even if i didn't really believe it"

does anyone ever feel like this and if so, do you follow the urge? do you ever just pretend, for lack of a better word, that you still believe in everything and act like you don't have any doubts just to feel more connected or immersed or just to feel like you don't have to question everything?

logically i know there's no point in this because i can't avoid what i believe forever, but sometimes i just miss having a solid belief system to sort of fall back on, or trust in. i wanted to know if anyone else also felt this urge and if they acted on it, because i'd like to believe i'm not the only one

i really like the anticipatory feeling of a drama that's currently airing and being able to discuss and theorize with others while waiting for the next episode. any recs for good dramas that are currently airing? i'm down for anything but sci-fi. bonus points as well for dramas that are very new/not far along in their season so i can easily catch up, but it's not required. mostly i just want something new and exciting

my weekend is starting off terribly because despite being anti-AI in the past i just found out that my best friend gives a pass on using gen AI to their two favorite creators because "they were such an important part of my life growing up so i'm gonna keeping watching their stuff" and when i tried to respectfully question their logic they blew me off because "they don't have time to talk about this right now" since they're going to a convention today. so. i honestly don't know how to approach this and i hate conflict but i'm trying really hard to stick to my guns because this is something that genuinely bothers me and i don't want to just joke my way out of tension like i normally do. but i also feel like i'm being overdramatic because am i really going to ruin a ~9 year friendship over this one thing?? i've never fought with them like this

So I work retail 5/7 days a week and I'm on my feet all day except for when I take breaks. This also usually involves a lot of walking around as well so I'm very tired and sore when I get home. I want to include some sort of workout into my routine that would help my mobility, for when I'm older but also to help me now. Sometimes when I'm working I'm required to sit in a crouch for an extended period of time to put items on a low shelf and it takes some effort to get back up afterwards, and I've also pulled muscles in my leg doing this.

Motivation is also a problem for me. Not only am I tired when I get home but exercising is pretty boring to me and I'm always thinking about doing something more fun. Any mobility exercises that aren't too hard to do after work and will keep my attention? The only ones I've tried so far that come close are dance workouts but those require a LOT of energy and just aren't sustainable for everyday use.

the advice i see the most to learn is to practice a lot by signing stuff like song lyrics, show dialogue, just random sentences you see, but how would one go about this when you only know a handful a signs? memorization eventually fades without practice so i know i can't just practice a sign a bit and then say "done". is there a certain amount of signs i have to memorize or a list i need to memorize before i can start practicing to actually make them stick? is there another way of practicing that fits my skill level?