u/oh_sh1t_man

I'm so fucking tired.....I payed big (for my country it's considered big) money and when I told this guy about my attempt on overdosing, it didn't kill me but it did damage my kidneys, heart and liver I guess...I been vomiting like crazy that day. It was powdered coffeine and idk what he was thinking? Maybe he thought I tried to kms by drinking coffee or smth, he joked that "have you tried doing it with sugar instead?" Hahaha very fucking funny....It took me months to get energy and strength to finally do it and get clowned on for not using a "proper method" I guess? I try to live, try to do my best and I wasted money I been given by my parents. I had to lie to them about where I spent the money and such. Well at least I'm gonna hate the shit out of that fuck, maybe anger is a good enough reason to keep going? Even tho I don't want to. Please if you need help get help, my experience is just one fucker, not every therapist is a fucko

Hi! I'm completely new here and my english is also real bad, I'm sorry if I'll sound confusing and weird, I tried my best. I also used translator to write this post so....please don't throw stones at me to fast.

I'm 23 y.o Male I had these symptoms for 3 years

Numbness in are between anus and penis

Cold sensation in anus and testicles

Pain worse when sitting

Premature ejaculation

Weaker erections, less full

Difficulty defecating

Weak urine stream

My questions are:

After 2–3 years of symptoms, is it possible to regain original state of things with treatment like relaxation exercises, physiotherapy ?
Should I focus on pelvic floor relaxation excercises or seek a specialist immediately?
Is there any point in repeating the electrostimulation therapy?

And my main concern is that I lost about 3–4 cm (1,5inch)~ in erect length (from 16–17 cm to 13–14 cm/6,6 to 5,1inch) and lost girth. I know that it sounds pathetic but like this condition affected my sex life big time and I'm just sad that I didn't act on it sooner and waited for that long

I tried electric stimulation therapy (chair with metal contacts, metal bumps?) — 6 months ago, unclear if it helped, well it kinda helped but not so much and I feel that by the time passed all the good effect is like months gone.

I also took nerve medication from neurologist in march of this year, it helped but still not in a long run and very briefly as it feels

No pelvic floor exercises yet, and maybe should've done them at first and now the moment is gone?

This problem is really messing me up, I went into depressive episodes and it's just scares me, what if I'm so f-up that there's no way to fix it no more? I don't even know if plastic surgery to regain size could help cuz in the end it might not work since the problem is a stuck nerve and only that. I'm sorry for swirling around this problem again and again, it's just really hard for me, I want to be happy and love again, I know that person I love accepts me the way I am, but I do not accept myself that way. I feel like an ugly parody of myself.

Thank you in advance, I hope that my post is at least understandable and I don't sound too weird, also sorry for going....too much into detail.

I payed big money for me to get laughed at basicaly

2-3 years of symptoms. Is complete recovery even possible?