u/olivia_vi

i can’t remember who it was, but ik it was one of my friends. they were walking towards me in a really odd way, they were a lot skinnier than they are irl, and worst of all they were wearing someone else’s skin, but backwards/inside out. so the muscle and stuff was visible and the skin wasn’t. it was fucking terrifying.

i broke my left leg (like, bone sticking out the back and everything), and the whole night i was trying to get help for it while also trying to still function. i was asking for pain medication, trying to get to a hospital, etc. nurses were there and would sometimes check on me and say they’d be right back with medication for me but then they would forget. i was outside somewhere, just trying to still function and get along w my day. they also told me they were going to have to like pop the bone back into place, and they couldnt sedate me for it. i never got help for it.

this one is old, but has stuck w me. i lived w my brother, mom and grandma at the time. in the dream, all 3 of them had evil clones that i had to kill. the problem is that they were LITERALLY identical so it was impossible to tell who was real and who was evil. i killed my mom and grandma’s clones but ended up killing my actual brother. the dream ended with me sobbing holding his body, my family pissed and disgusted w me, and the clone laughing at me.

exactly like the title says. i want to send his mom a letter explaining everything he did to me. i want his parents to disown him. i never want another girl to fall for his disguise. i want it to be public information. it’s too late now and i know that, but i want to ruin his life like he’s ruined my mental health

my friend showed me screenshots of a huge text her ex sent her apologizing for everything. i didn’t think it would make me upset bc it’s been over a year and 1/2 since him and i broke up and i genuinely don’t think abt him often, but it opened up the flood gates. i realized that part of me is still waiting for an apology, and idk if that will ever go away. this guy has ruined me, and i don’t know how to let go of the trauma. i hate that he still has control of my emotions in a way. it’s not that i want him back AT ALL!!!!!!! i just want… idk. validation? idk what it is. just some accountability ig. i’m so tired of these cycles. of thinking i’m healed and fine n then something triggering me and everything coming back up again. i genuinely do not think i’ll ever heal, and while a part of me still yearns for a relationship, i don’t think i would ever allow myself to be as vulnerable as i was w him ever again. so what’s even the point?