Tired
Basically I am a gay woman who lives in Kyrgyzstan. I am 20. I always understood that I have to work hard in order to have a better life. I was working hard, making money. I have decided to apply to Italian universities. We have certain agencies that help with this process in my country. Last year one such company lied to me. I didn’t get into any university. This year I applied myself and got into top schools, however they are not giving me my login and passwords from my scholarship accounts etc. I am unable to study without regional scholarship. It broke me. I spend so much money, my hard earned money. I have always tried super hard. I study at top uni in my country. I was among the 100 top scorers in my national test for college admissions. I try to go to gym, but life always gets in the way. Some shit always happens. I feel so lonely and isolated in my country. I have to hide my identity. I try hard but nothing works. I feel like I am cursed.