
24F. will i get married? when?
I would like to be married and have kids since I love children but I’m afraid it is not for me. I also have complications over education. I’m very sensitive. Any insight is helpful.

I would like to be married and have kids since I love children but I’m afraid it is not for me. I also have complications over education. I’m very sensitive. Any insight is helpful.
i turned 24 in December and i’m an aquarius rising. it has been a very difficult year, mostly due to my home/family. i don’t feel like a person anymore. my worst nightmare would be spending my life in this town and it’s happening now. i see no point in having goals and dreams anymore, and honestly i don’t want to live like that. at least for me, life is all about going after your dreams but i can’t do that for some reason
i’d appreciate any observations and advice, of course.
my initial plan as a kid was to become a doctor but i also had so much trouble with learning and education in general… i really thought i was stupid but i’m smart if i put some effort into it. my childhood and teen years were pretty much wasted trying to survive self-hating thoughts and low self esteem, and all by myself too. but i’m not asking for validation, just want to know what career do you think of when looking at this chart?