Does anyone get extremely frustrated when someone tells them to eat or even mentions food?
I can't stand it, especially when my family tells me to eat, I don't want them to think about my habits or even when I eat, I don't want them to worry, I don't want other people telling me to eat or asking me what I ate and encouraging me to eat, I don't want them to offer me food I just want to be solely in control of it. Anytime anyone tells me to eat, I cry (obviously not in front of them) because I hate it so much, and the worst part is I feel so guilty because they don't even know about my disorder since I don't like telling people. I went out with my friends last week and they're so pushy about "eating all together" why do I HAVE to eat just because you guys think its some moral, correct thing to do when you go out for everyone to eat? I ended up eating, but if I'm fine not eating anything why do you have to be so forceful? And they spend abhorent amounts on a tiny bowl of food (£20 for a ramen soup I could have made at home). I hate this so much, I just want to enjoy eating again without guilt. Without detesting people for bringing up food at any point. I think it's because of how ashamed I am when I binge eat...