im considering detransition
I’m 20 ftm, known im trans since I was 10. im not on hormones or anything, but I pass decently when im not talking.
It’s not that im not trans, I know I am, and I don’t want to be seen as a girl or whatever. I want to be a man, I want a flat chest and everything that comes with T.
But I just don’t want to do this anymore. im sick of being difficult, I don’t want my life to be this complicated. Im sick of being stared at in toilets, I don’t date because I don’t know who would be into me as I am, pronouns being sosmthing for people to remember and not letting my friends around my family because they don’t acknowledge im trans. my life would just be easier as a girl.
All my teen years I never presented as a girl and I wonder if I should just try it.
I really don’t know. In 2023 I let my hair grow out a bit because of a bad experience at a barber and constantly getting shit haircuts. I didnt like being called she and being seen as a girls but I felt more free in not needing to try to pass. Im just sick of how this impacts my life
Edit: I also am a transmedicalist, im not one of those ‘I went trans in 2020 but like being a girl’ situations