r/Transmedical

My voice is feminine but sometimes I pass with it when I’m very lucky. I still despite is and want to rip my vocal cords out tho. The only problem is I want to be a singer one day. Singing is literally my biggest passion and I have a very wide vocal range and it is similar to Nicholas Petricca’s. I know for a fact going on T will not ruin my singing voice per se, but it will lower it and I’m worried I won’t be able to sing well anymore. I’ve done research, and all the sources tell me the same thing. T will 100% change your singing voice and lower it, but it won’t “ruin” it as long as you practice. I’m going to see an endocrinologist before I make the final decision, and I do really want a deep voice, but at the same time, my dream of being a singer is the only thing I’m living for (since being trans literally ruined every other aspect of my life and being a singer is the only reason I have to live since I’ll never be able to find a partner) and I’m just so so worried that T will destroy my range.

anyone know of suppliments that boost testosterone? i can't go on hrt yet

so, i had RFF phalloplasty with UL a few months ago (my vaginectomy and stuff was a few years ago). i had glansplasty and a split-thickness skin graft a month after that (the skin graft was because my surgeon went for a wound vac on my arm).

and honestly, i'm just coming here to vent because i still have my suprapubic catheter. i still *need* it! i am able to urinate through my new phallus, but it hurts so much and comes out of two extra places besides. it's been its own little hell to deal with and i want it to be over, but the earliest revision is a 4-month minimum and it's just been difficult for me.

hopefully it's alright that i'm posting here. i was banned from /phallo over a year ago or so for "transphobia" (not agreeing with trans "men" wanting to keep their vagina while getting phallo) so i have nowhere else to talk about this really. i'm hoping that an upcoming test soon will help my surgeon figure out how to fix the problems, but it's been difficult regardless

Ive been struggling with severe depression, dysphoria and eating disorders.. the list goes on. Ive always given up on working out cos im weak as hell and felt dysphoric cos of that + the eating disorder was making me weak and tired all the time, but recently tried it again and its going awesome. Im thinking about starting to use a gym soon, its a huge step for me

Just wanted to share that with someone 👌

People are lost, confused, on a path, growing up, or so deep under they can't even start to comprehend.

It has a huge impact on us when their issues become public. Absolute truth.

But it's "just" lost people. Not monsters.

I think we can all agree on our views without the additional hate. Tbh I think it would help us focus on what matters more. Like sharing resources or fundraising for those actually in need or creating community out of connection, not hate.

I feel like this sub is starting to become more like a one topic venting sub and it's getting a bit depressing

Sorry for this vent, have a great day everyone

(I'm open to discussing obv- just my pov)

I do find it odd that the people saying "transmeds are racist!!" are 90% white and nevered experienced racism and when ask them why they mention money or having a loving family??? Like anyone can have money and a supportive family regardless PLUS I have met a lot of transmeds that are not white or think this way So I have zero idea where they got this from and to be honest I don't agree with some transmeds sometimes but this feels WAY too far also sorry if this is off topic

My trans wife and her cis sister were talking about some famous person who is now a trans man and who had kids before and i chimed in said outright "its disgusting for trans men to get pregnant" and i guess i said it wrong bc she was baffled and seemed offended. My wife a little after, talked about it w her and she still doesnt understand. Probably bc most of her friends are non binary and shes not educated on what real transgenders go through.

Cant really have a real convo with her sister about anything since shes heavily programmed but jesus fucking christ why do cis people still associate me, a trans man, with pregnancy? This shit used to make me immedietly suicidal when i was in the beginning phases of transtioning and just thinking about it makes me sick.

I would rather sIit my thr0at than get pregnant. I wish i could rlp my uterus out and burn it. Thats how bad my dysphoria gets.

After being forced by pedophiles to be a girl the first 18 years of my life, i know what it feels like to be objectified. These perverts fetishized me hardcore and would joke about me getting pregnant at 12. After all this hard work of transitioning and healing myself, theres still retards viewing me as a fucking baby machine. This is exactly why 1) i dont have friends 2) i dont take part in any "community" and 3) im niether liberal or republican.

My entire life ive never been HEARD. Everyone forces their opinions about my life and my body down my fucking throat and the past year i can actually voice my opinion so i may have been doing it a bit harshly. Oh fucking well, its the harsh reality of my experience. So ill say it harshly and ill be glad to make people offended, bc that means im saying something right.

Im tired of peoples ignorance. Maybe in their next life theyll reincarnate as trans and then understand.

Often I come across posts, TikToks and so on of 'trans men' being so clueless about being male. As if trans men are schooling trans men on how to be men. Like, isn't this natural to you guys?

Granted, no one is born knowing how to be this or that. I get cis people go through a process of learning how to be in society and act according to their AGAB. We all do, actually. We're forever students.

So I get that. I suppose what I'm trying to say is something adjacent to that.

Speaking from my own experience, I realized I had to transition trans because I've always been neurologically male. Socially inclined to be in male roles, stereotypically male behaviors, thoughts, mannerisms, sexuality, physical traits, etc.

So I had a very hard time integrating into female roles, behaviors, anatomy... This is where the dysphoria and general 'oddness' started. So basically day 1.

My point is, being male feels natural. I see so many posts and general sentiments that make me think being male to those people seem unnatural or counterintuitive. I could tell those people from cis men just by the way they type, express themselves, their thoughts and probably physically in real life (but that's a given if they're pre-T or very early in their transition)

But I get that my experience is just my own. I feel kinda shitty implying I'm more of a 'real' man compared to them, which I don't like.

Im moving to a new city (Houston), I want is to make friends but I feel like meeting likeminded people isnt in the cards.

Im bisexual, pre-T, and getting out of a toxic relationship as well as moving back in with family and plan to start DIY HRT soon. My family isnt supportive so Im just hoping for the best and playing it by ear. Im struggling and Ive never felt so isolated in my life.

My only LGBT friend is a cis lesbian and is also a transmedicalist herself, we've met irl but mostly talk online. It has been very healing as she is literally the ONLY person that's never given me shit for my violent dysphoria or treated me as anything but a man who just happens to have a medical condition . Meanwhile, EVERY other "GNC" friend (transmascs, enbies) I have had to drop due to brushing off my dysphoria any time I had to vent and belittling my struggles with my transition being delayed.

I don't need a ton of friends . Just people I click with and who can sympathize with my struggle. It feels so futile. I already feel so emasculated for how I look and embarrassed to call myself a man. I feel like Im almost better off avoiding other trans people.

I wish I could hang out with cis queer men but with how I look now I'd be laughed out rightfully so. All I want is to have friends who see me as just a man without pushing their weird ideology onto me.

Hi, I don' t know where else to post it, so i was on t for about 6 months my voice drop a bit and had a "t voice" for a while, but I had to stop and it been like another 6 month my voice has settled and sound more normal but im afraid when I go back on T my voice won't drop more and I will have this not quite deep voice. Does someone knows about it?