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I'm not even that far into my transition, I'm stealth to strangers and I have fully socially and legally transitioned. But no medical changes yet.

Still, I seem to have recurring nightmares. In which I either have long hair again, and I just can't stop it from growing and I can't cut it. And others where I'm in a social situation and I'm constantly being misgendered and I just can't do anything against it and I'm being outed by it at the same time. And others where I'm being ostracized by others and end up alone, because I don't fit in with the guys, because they know I'm trans in the dream, and I don't want to be with the girls.

The nightmares don't really have anything do to with real life, because I don't experience these things anymore, for the most part. Except my mother misgendering my on a daily basis.

Anyone else having nightmares like that? Is there anything I can do about it/ will it stop later on when I'm done with my transition?

At the beginning of this year (when I was 16, now 17), I started sessions at a clinic to get the green light for HRT. It's now September and I've had all the sessions they needed. But I still have to wait until an appointment on the 30th, because I'm a minor and only after that can I go the endocrinologist. I made an appointment for that today, but they could only give me an appointment in November. And I don't know how long I'll have wait from there to actually get testosterone, because I don't know how many appointments they need and they don't have my blood work and everything seems to never come to an end. I started this year, thinking I would be on T by the end of this year, but now, it seems more likely to be spring 2027. I need to be able to go stealth before next August, because I'll be starting an apprenticeship then. My time in school while I was out as trans was so horrible, I don't want to live through that again.

And I have a feeling that T won't fix shit, I still need top surgery and looking at how long it takes to get HRT, it doesn't seem like I'll be able to get it before I turn 20. I currently can't do anything. I hardly go outside because I constantly think about being viewed as a girl, I never know how a stranger sees me as so I'm constantly on edge and it feels like my binder can't hide anything. Also social interactions with friends of friends or strangers feel so awkward, because I'm not sure if they see me as a girl or a guy and if they believe my name is truly my name (I changed it legally, so I could show my ID to prove it?...). People are too nice to say something directly in your face, I've had encounters where people asked my friends if I was really a guy or clocked me after a bit of time . But also interactions (mostly with adults) where they couldn't tell I was trans and thought I was a cis guy. So I never know as what the others actually see me as. I just feel kinda helpless, because it feels like T isn't even going to be able to change my body (in time, I don't have years, only a few months before I need to go stealth), so I'll just wait for months on end during which I can't do anything to end up feeling stuck again, because T didn't do enough and I can't get top surgery in the near future.

This whole waiting time is absolutely destroying me currently, I came out when I was 13 so I've been waiting for 4 years now (actually more, found out I was trans at 11). I see 14 and 15 and 16 year old people online getting on HRT, while I'm fucking stuck with no definite end in sight. I just don't know how to deal with all of this. Psychologists aren't really that helpful to me and it just hurts me more to talk with a psychologist with the issues I have with my body

For context, I recently turned 17. I'm currently at the UPD Bern for my Indikationsschreiben to get testosterone and I would like to get through the biggest parts of my transition as fast as possible, so I can finally live a normal life after that.

Is it possible with the Indikationsschreiben for the HRT, to also get a mastectomy or would I need a different one for that? I know that I probably can't have the surgery at 17, but would it be possible to have the surgery talk with the surgeon at 17 and get the surgery when I turn 18, to make the whole process faster? How long did it took for you guys to get the surgery, how long did you have to wait (weeks, months, years?)?

I live in a country where we still have mandatory military service for males (aka everyone who's legally male). I changed my legal sex already and next year I'll turn 18, so I'll get a letter and have to attend a information thingy. We have to go through medical, physical and psychological testing at 19, called Aushebung (and being trans isn't a reason anymore to deem you unfit for service, our army even has a unit for diversity, so that any gay or trans people or women don't get discriminated). Then we have time until 24-25 to do around 8 months of basic training in the army (amount of time can differ).

Other options would be to pay extra tax or to do civil service, but that would be extra long and it sounds kinda boring.

I'm very likely starting testosterone this winter or spring and I'll try to get top surgery as fast as possible, the second I turn 18. I want to have both things done before the Aushebung, so I can do the physical stuff without a binder and because I want to stay as stealth as possible (I know it's not possible to stay stealth to doctors or even higher ups). And before my actual military service, I want to have bottom surgery done (opting for a full metoidioplasty and hysterectomy), because of the group showers and because it makes staying stealth a lot easier.

Is my whole plan achievable? Would being stealth be possible without bottom surgery? Should I rather opt for doing civil service? Is going to the military a bad idea?

I live in a country where we still have mandatory military service for males (aka everyone who's officially male). I changed my official sex already and next year I'll turn 18, so I'll get a letter and have to attend a information thingy. We have to go trough medical, physical and psychological testing at 19, called Aushebung (and being trans isn't a reason anymore to deem you unfit for service, because of a new law). Then we have time until 25 to do 8 months of basic training in the army.

Other options would be to pay extra tax or to do civil service, but that would be extra long and it sounds kinda boring.

I'm probably starting testosterone this winter or this spring and I'll try to get top surgery as fast as possible, the second I turn 18. Because I want to have both things done before the Aushebung, so I can do the physical stuff without a binder and because I want to stay as stealth as possible. And before my actual military service, I want to have bottom surgery done (opting for a full metoidioplasty and hysterectomy), because of the group showers aka I want to stay as stealth as possible.

Is my whole plan achievable? Or would it be too stressful and not enough time for everything? Would being stealth be possible without bottom surgery? Should I rather opt for doing civil service?

I'm not sure how it started, but I'm pretty sure in the 2010s the term non-binary first started getting used by people and it was followed by years and years of more nonsense that eventually ended up becoming mainstream so now a lot of people know about it

I mean, I can see in a way why the term non binary was made up, because of androgynous people (I still don't believe it exists though). But over time, especially during lockdown, more and more terms got made up and the actual meaning of what being trans is got pushed down, because the new terms like genderfluid oder demiboy or whatever just don't make sense if you look at the actual medical and biological reason for transsexual people. But somehow, tucutes got people to change the definition of being trans (being something different than your "AGAB") and the reason why you're trans (dysphoria doesn't matter, you "feel" your gender). And I didn't even talk about the pronouns. A whole bunch of new pronouns got made up (like star/starself) and people were collecting them like playing cards. Not only were there new pronouns, but also pronouns suddenly lost their meaning. He/him could refer to a woman and the other way around. You could present like a feminine woman but could demand to be called they/them. And you needed to call someone their pronouns that were put in their bio, or you're a hateful transphobic misogynist. Really, all that pronouns shit is horrible, never in my life do I want to tell anyone my pronouns. Also, transitioning lost it's meaning too. You suddenly don't need to transition and can still be trans (I know that there are people in unsafe environments, but you get my point hopefully), you can go on testosterone for only 3 months and then stop to only get certain effects, you can get top surgery but want the scars to be highly visible because you want everyone to know that you're trans, because everything is just an aesthetic!

All that stuff doesn't make any sense. Like at all. And if you dare to criticize it, you get death threats, get cancelled or banned, get called a transphobe and a nazi and a bigot and a gatekeeper. I just don't get how such an ideology got so mainstream, with now popular people putting their pronouns in their bio, the pronouns option getting available everywhere and everyone and their mom knowing what non binary is. Even media adapted non binary characters and shit like that.

How did something that lacks so much logic and affects only a small portion of the population get so much traction? And will it stop some day, will everyone get back to the original definition or being trans and stop with that bullshit?

I'm not sure if my take on this is correct, but it's something I noticed with many people that say they're "under the non-binary umbrella". These people genuinely confuse feeling masculine with "feeling like a guy" and vice versa. There are cis guys that feel feminine and don't act nor "feel" like the typical cis man. Instead of thinking that this is okay and you can be/feel feminine as a guy, they come to the conclusion that "they're not 100% cis" and that they must be a demiguy/non-binary/genderfluid or whatever bullshit gender that was made up. The same thing for cis girls that are tomboys, that fall down the wrong internet rabbit hole and suddenly identify as a "genderqueer masc enby", without understanding that it's actually completely fine if you're a girl/woman who's masculine.

And I'm actually someone who likes the societal idea of men being masculine and women being feminine, as it makes it easier to pass and I just like that societal norm and I will conform, because I like being seen as just a normal guy. But I don't have a problem with people being masculine/feminine, no matter their sex. But it's important for me that these people don't get confused by some trans activist and gender fanatics and end up going down the medical transition route and regretting it, becoming detrans and start hating on all transsexuals. Or they never transition medically because of a lack of dysphoria, but start preaching gender identity and that you can identify as everything, which also hurts actual trans people and cis people as well, because even more of them then get confused. The mistake in thinking that the title implies harms both cis people and trans people and we should stop it.

I recently turned 17. My home life is horrible, I have a verbally abusive mom and my dad just can't do anything about it. It's been like that since I was 13, when she found out I was trans. I got no support from anyone, it was just screaming all the time, which really fucked me up mentally. She tried controlling me, forcing me to show my body to her to prove that I'm not secretly taking medication. She wanted to control what I wear, how my hair was cut and stuff like that and she got mad at me, because the mom of a classmate confronted her with that, after I told that classmate what was going on. In the beginning of this year, I finally got support from my dad and there's a high chance I can finally start hormone treatment.

About a month ago, I got arrested (I'm not sure if I can write that here, since the court decision wasn't made yet). My mom got extremely angry (which was fair). She, my dad and my sister went away for holidays and now she's back since two days and it's been horrible for me. She's screaming and trying to break my door in. She says that I myself am the reason for everything that's bad in my life and that she never did anything wrong, that I'm a liar and trying to hurt her. She told me that I'm the reason my dad and her have a fucked up relationship. She said that we have to have "The talk", but I talked to her multiple times, trying to explain that I'm actually not a psychopath and that I just want to transition and be treated like a normal human being. But she had big issues with that and tried to diagnose me with mental disorders, tried to talk it out of me by telling my how ugly I am and that no one will ever love me when I'm like that, and the arrest is now just a new argument against me.

She said that we need to talk now every day, but every one of her talks end in screaming or her trying to take something away from me (aka my privacy or internet). There's a chance that I'll be kicked out of school because of the arrest, which makes my whole situation a lot worse. I feel unsafe at home, it just feels like I'm in constant danger and I'm scared to leave my room, because she could break something in there or hide it from me. I don't have any close friends I could go to. I'm not sure of she's actually abusive, no one I told ever tried to do anything to help me and I'm scared that if I told youth protection services, they would just laugh and send me back home and then my mom would be even more angry.

I played with the thought of running away, but I need to stay here because of the court and because I don't want to delay my transition anymore. I don't know what to do. Should I quit school? Does anyone have any idea on what to do?

I'm 17 and I pass most of the time (with a few exceptions), but I look and sound like I'm 12-13.

It's a big issue for me and I feel extremely self conscious because of it, especially because all the people around me look their age, or even older. I've tried a lot of things to look older, for example experimenting with clothes and hair or fixing my posture to be taller (I'm now around 171cm or 5'7''). I just feel kinda uncomfortable when I go outside and I'm just seen as a little kid. And I kinda want a girlfriend, but I know no girl will want me if I look that young. I'll probably go on testosterone in around half a year to a year, but I'm not sure what to do until then

I just turned 17, I'm legally male but I'll have to wait a couple months before I can get on testosterone and I have to wait until I'm 18 to get surgeries.

I look really young, I sound really young and nothing I do can change that. It's frustrating to see all the cis guys my age, looking and sounding their age. Not just that, also the differences in strength are making me feel like I can't keep up with them, no matter how much I train. It seems like everyone has/had a girlfriend or a situationship of some sort, while I never had anyone interested in me, because no girl my age will fall for a guy that looks about 13. Also, I'm really short, all the guys around me are so tall (even the ones younger than me) and it makes me feel so much younger and less like I'm actually one of them and their age group. I don't feel respected or like I belong with them because of the reasons listed above (and also because they knew me pre social transition). But I don't fit in with the cis girls my age, so everyone around me just sees me as a weird thing in between, which actually fucking hurts.

Everyone around me calls me by my name and sometimes male pronouns (they mostly try to use my name as a replacement for pronouns which i hate), but I know that when I'm not around, they probably call me by female pronouns (at least I heard it one time). It just seems like everyone around me suddenly sees me as very female, even tho before I came out, a lot of people told me that they thought i was male. When I was socially a girl, I felt too masculine and I felt too masculine to got into the girls bathroom. But since I socially transitioned, I don't feel masculine enough and feel like I'm to feminine to go to the guys bathroom. It just feels like I don't belong anywhere, even tho I'm trying my hardest to pass and keeping up with guys my age. At places where no one knows me, I feel like I fit in a lot better with the guys, so maybe it's that they knew me pre social transition.

I also feel like I pass less and less, the older I get, because my looks and voice don't align with my real age. At 15, having a high voice was fine because I could get seen as a late bloomer. Now that excuse doesn't work. I know that I just have to wait until I get on testosterone, but that's still months away from me and even then, I'm afraid that it's too late to catch up. If someone knows what I could do to feel less helpless and shitty, please drop some tips

It just feels like wherever people know I'm trans, I'm reduced to my body and natal sex. When I need to explain to people what being trans is, they answer "Oh, so you're a girl/woman and who wants to be a man" or "So you have the body of a girl/woman and you want to be a man/you identify as a man" and so on. Even an official statement listet that I was born female and identify as a man (the subject of the document didn't have anything to do with me being trans and wasn't medically relevant, they just threw it in as a little fun fact). That's also the reason that words like FTM or AFAB really annoy me. We have a word: Trans man. Or just man, if the trans part isn't relevant for the situation. It just feels like people do everything to tell me I'm not a real man, and for that reason don't use trans man and instead say "born female/has a female body, identifies as male." I just fucking hate it, it reminds me of a body that feels extremely wrong and that I hate so much. I know it's the truth about my body and sex, but I don't want to be reminded of it.

And I know it's important for certain medical stuff, but all those situations weren't medical in any way. And the "identifies as" thing is a whole other issue, that I'm not focusing on here

In the last few years, I've seen a lot of really young "transmasc's" that obviously don't have dysphoria get on T or getting it in a few months. It's just frustrating to me. I've been diagnosed with gender dysphoria at 14 years old. That's 3 years back and hormone treatment is still 6 months to 2 years away from me, because everything takes so long and every appointment in the near future is occupied.

I don't get how teens that don't have dysphoria get so easily on hormones while I have to wait for years, it just doesn't make any sense

I recently had to explain being trans to different people (police, teachers, parents, etc.), that knew little to nothing about being trans. I had a hard time trying to explain it, without landing in the "born in the wrong body" and "identifying as something" territory. And the medical way was too complicated to explain in a short amount of time, and even there, I'm not sure how I should phrase it best.

Is there any easy and short way to explain being trans to someone, without it sounding weird?

This kind of post has probably been posted multiple times on here, but I just wanted to share my thoughts.

Recently, I watched a youtube video about someone disscussing trans people and the comments were full of people on the right, who believe that all trans people have the same beliefs as tucutes, and just "identify" as a gender, don't pass at all and are just trying to invade certain gendered spaces. The tucutes literally made real trans people into a joke. Now, anyone can make jokes about "I identify as a washing machine" because they believe that's how it works. They believe, now that anyone can just choose to change their "gender", like a man waking up one morning and deciding to be a woman. And that whole pronoun shit also makes us seem like a joke (especially neopronouns or people who are he/him lesbians). They make it seem like actual trans people don't have dysphoria, so in conclusion we don't need medical intervention. And because they make it seem like you don't need dysphoria to be trans, a bunch of teenage cisgirls are taking up resources from actual trans people, just because "they don't feel like a girl", they "think they would be attractive as a guy", they "want to break gender norms", they "want to be in a gay relationship" or are just trying to escape misogony. Tucutes also change how we are perceived in daily life. I sadly can't be stealth currently, but I pass. Everyone who knows that I'm trans treats me like I just identify as trans and don't actually have dysphoria. During a political discussion with my friends, I tried to talk about tucutes, I said : "There are some women online that just walk around in bras and look like women but they want to be called a man." And my friend said "But isn't that what you're doing?". And that shit hurt, because it just shows me how people around just view me as someone who "identifies as a guy", not someone who has actual dysphoria.

Also, political discussions would be so much easier if everyone saw the truscum side of trans people instead of the tucute side. Instead of saying the whole "I identify" and "I use these pronouns" shit that aren't real arguments and just make us look ridiculous, we could actually argue that we have a medical condition thats proven to exist with science. It would be so much harder to take right of trans people away, if we could just argue that it's dypshoria and not simply an identity. I don't even get how the tucute side "won" and became popular in the media. Now trans people just seem like dyed hair, pierced, alternative freaks, who are extremly loud, obnoxious and annoying and can't understand reality or biology.

I came out at school a few months ago and got misgendered by some classmates today, who thought I couldn't hear them. The worst thing is that the guy who misgendered me, actually was very nice to me a few months ago and corrected people when they called me "she", even tho I don't really know him (at least that's what I've been told). I'm doing everything I can so that I pass and I think I pass well enough to most people (there are still a few that saw me as a girl but that happens really rarely), that I even had big trouble on a train because the train operator didn't believe that my ticket with my legal name was actually me. Mind you, I'm not on T yet, but can probably start in a few months. Sadly not sooner because there are issues because I'm underage (turning 17 in less than a month). Also, my parents obviously know that I'm trans but my mom goes out of her way to call me her daughter or say she to me. It makes me depressed, but I don't want to play the pronoun police and correct people because I want that people call me a guy, because they actually see me as one. But that classmate thing and my mom just shows me, that people with never see me as a actual guy and it also makes me scared that everyone around me just calls me male out of respect, not because they see me as a guy. I'm also scared that this will never change, even when I go on T and get all of the operations done.

Completly unreleated but it's just been on my mind: Where I live, everyone who has M as their legal sex needs to go to the army. And I'll be changing my documents in 2 weeks, so I also have to serve. But I'm not sure if I can fit every operation (I'm opting for a mastectomy, hysterectomy and full metoidioplasty) in before I need to do basic training. A 2-3 day test is done (with medical examenation and stuff like that, which I'm scared of doing without any operations) while I'm around 19-20 and after that, I have can choose to do basic training whenever I want, but I have to get it done before between the ages 19-24. I want to go to the military because it's the normal thing for most guys here to do and i would just feel lesser of a man if I would just do civil service, even tho some guys do that. I think a part of it is also the fear of missing out.

I'm a trans guy and I'll be changing my gender marker to male in less than a month (and I'll change my name as well). I'll turn 17 soon after I changed the gender marker and I was wondering how the whole military process works. I actually want to join the military, but I'm not sure if I'm automatically unfit for service. If I'm lucky, I'll start Testosterone in a few months and when I turn 18, I'll try to get a mastectomy as soon as possible.

A few of my peers have already received a letter for the Musterung (I'm not sure of the word in english, maybe recruitment?). So if I change my gender marker, will I get a letter too?

I also want to complete my transition before I go to the military (hrt, mastectomy and metoidioplasty, but for the military just hrt and mastectomy would be fine I guess), so is there a way to postpone the recruitment process to like 21 or something like that, instead of 18/19.

And how does it look with the medical examination? Can I postpone that too? Because it would be extremly uncomfortable for me to do that before the mastectomy. Do they look at the genitals there? Or does that not matter?

Another question: Is it possible to stay stealth while in the military? I don't like people knowing I'm trans.

And if thats relevant, I'm from Kanton Fribourg. And sorry if I said anything wrong, I'm not really familiar with the whole process.

I'm feeling extremly shitty right now. I'm in a clinic to be treated for my gender dysphoria for about 7 months. In the beginning, they told me that I need a certain amount of appointments with the phychiatrist there so that they can give me letter and another appointment in a hospital nearby, so I can finally start testosterone. I only have to do around two more appointments but for about a month and a half, the next appointment is keep getting pushed forward. And even if I have all of them, I'll still need to do extra stuff and wait an extra amount of time, so I can consent independent from my parents to the procedure, because my mom isn't really to happy about it. And even if that all gets through, I'll probably have to wait a few weeks to months to get an appointment at the hospital and even if I get that, they'll start giving me hormone blockers for months before I can get testosterone. In conclusion: I'll have to wait a very long time and this time is currently getting even longer because the appointment is keep getting pushed forward.

This whole thing just destroys me mentally, because I'm slowly getting too old to pass normally, my 17th birthday is in less than a month. And I look like 14-15 years old, what would've been okay if I was still 16 because at that age, I guess it can happen that you look very young because you're a late bloomer. But I'm turning 17 and that's way too old for that whole "late bloomer" stuff. I also start to pass less and less, even if puberty is probably finished for me. My face and body just gets more feminine and I can't stop it and it makes me feel extremly shitty. Also, I see a lot of transguys that start hormone treatment at like 13-16 and I feel bad because I went to full female puberty so there are parts of me that will be permanently feminine (aka my skeleton). I know that testosterone is strong, but sometimes I can see that a guy is trans because his face is more compact, while many cis guys faces are longer. And my face (and body) will now forever be stuck in that clockable state. Back to becoming 17, the gap between me and my peers is also getting wider and they all now look so old and are so masculine while I'm stuck in a pre-puberty lookin state. I also hoped to start earlier so I can still grow a bit and maybe my shoulders could become broader, but now I'm stuck at 167cm, probably permanently

Maybe I'm not thinking clearly about this, but I feel so shitty and the thought of having to live like this for months or even years before I can start medical treatment makes me depressed

I'm feeling extremly shitty right now. I'm in a clinic to be treated for my gender dysphoria for about 7 months. In the beginning, they told me that I need a certain amount of appointments with the phychiatrist there so that they can give me letter and another appointment in a hospital nearby, so I can finally start testosterone. I only have to do around two more appointments but for about a month and a half, the next appointment is keep getting pushed forward. And even if I have all of them, I'll still need to do extra stuff and wait an extra amount of time, so I can consent indipendent from my parents to the procedure, because my mom isn't really to happy about it. And even if that all gets through, I'll probably have to wait a few weeks to months to get an appointment at the hospital and even if I get that, they'll start giving me hormone blockers for months before I can get testosterone. In conclusion: I'll have to wait a very long time and this time is currently getting even longer because the appointment is keep getting pushed forward.

This whole thing just destroys me mentally, because I'm slowly getting too old to pass normally, my 17th birthday is in less than a month. And I look like 14-15 years old, what would've been okay if I was still 16 because at that age, I guess it can happen that you look very young because you're a late bloomer. But I'm turning 17 and that's way too old for that whole "late bloomer" stuff. I also start to pass less and less, even if puberty is probably finished for me. My face and body just gets more feminine and I can't stop it and it makes me feel extremly shitty and suicidal. Also, I see a lot of transguys that start hormone treatment at like 13-16 and I feel bad because I went to full female puberty so there are parts of me that will be permanently feminine (aka my skeleton). I know that testosterone is strong, but sometimes I can see that a guy is trans because his face is more compact, while many cis guys faces are longer. And my face (and body) will now forever be stuck in that clockable state. Back to becoming 17, the gap between me and my peers is also getting wider and they all now look so old and are so masculine while I'm stuck in a pre-puberty lookin state. I also hoped to start earlier so I can still grow a bit and maybe my shoulders could become broader, but now I'm stuck at 167cm, probably permanently

Maybe I'm not thinking clearly about this, but I feel so shitty and the thought of having to live like this for months or even years before I can start medical treatment makes me depressed. And I also thought about suicide, cause if I die now, I at least don't have to live through any more suffering

(Sorry in advance for my english, it isn't my first language)

I rarely see this topic discussed online and I'm curious what other peoples thoughts on this are.

Over the years, I got to see trans men representation across media, from big movies to short movies on youtube. But across all of this, I've seen one big thing most of these representations have in common: These "trans men characters" either look like adult women with short hair or still have a visible chest or have a high voice, or all of these things combined. Most recent example of this is Scary movie 6 (which I didn't really watch, but I saw the trailer and like the first 20 minutes of the movie). The trans character is actually played by a trans actor, but they seem kinda feminine. i don't want to be mean, but they just look like a stereotypical trans man representation, where there is no value placed on making the trans character actually look like they're passing or masculine. I saw a similar thing in a short film, where the transman had a sport shirt on where you could see his sportsbra and I don't think that's good representation, because I couldn't image any transguy with actual dysphoria walking around like that, especially pre T. In the movie 3 generations, the transman is played by a female actress and again just looks like a woman with short hair and visible chest, that just plays dress-up as a man.

I'm not sure if I just watched the wrong movies, but I always see the same kind of representation. Even the trans actors in Hollywood kinda fall under that "bad representation category", for example Elliot Page, because he's just not really that masculine and is really twinkish.

I don't really care about the representation of trans men in media, but if they want to represent trans men, they should do it the right way. Because the people who watch these movies, get the idea that all trans men are just women with short hair that don't really pass and feel like they're playing an act in trying to be men (and that could lead to them treating trans men weirdly or think of trans men as just "females"). I think it's really bad representation, because nearly all binary transmen ("transmasc's" are a completly different story) that are on T, or even pre T in some cases, were masculine and basically just cis men. And Hollywood just makes trans men look like weird women or very twinkish men that aren't masculine at all