Day 90
Today is day 90 no weed. I’ve spent the last decade heavily relying on weed, and the last 5 years with VERY heavy dab usage. It’s so weird to not have it be a crutch anymore. I’ve started going to the gym and trying to take my life and health more seriously. I’ve invested in hobbies and learned more about myself. I always blamed the thc for my sleepiness and my attitude. As it turns out, that’s just me. I’m incredibly sleepy all the time, and easily frustrated when things do not go as planned. It’s easier to see when i’m in the wrong now that i’m not so clouded with smoke. I feel like I’m really growing as a person. I wish I had someone around me who would’ve helped me stop at a much younger age. Looking back, I do feel sad for the young teenage me (13-14) who got sucked into this nasty habit head first and was unable to stop. I know that feels dramatic but I feel like I cost myself so many opportunities because of a silly plant my friends hyped up at a young age. Regularly, I think about how when my parents(also heavy smokers) found out I had started smoking, they forced me to take a large dab at a temperature that was absolutely diabolical. I also am regularly plagued with the thought that my father did not concern himself with me until I did start smoking. At that point I became a friend to him, not his child. I just wish someone was there for me as a child, and I never had to rely on this plant. Sorry for the rant, just a little emotional as i near day 100.