I woke up one random day and suddenly realized I don’t want to be someone’s girlfriend anymore.
Napapagod ako sa setup namin na parang ako lang yung nasa relationship namin. I’m always the one who understands, gives patience, and puts in effort. Tapos bigla niyang naisipang bumawi in a way na gusto ko before, pero hindi ko na hinihingi ngayon, and bigla na lang akong naubos.
Hindi ako makatanggi kasi nagi-guilty ako, kahit feeling ko hindi naman niya sinasadya mang-guilt trip. She wants me to be someone na loud and proud na girlfriend, which I already am, pero siya hindi niya magawa kasi closeted pa siya. I’m not compelling her to come out naman, pero minsan naiisip ko lang hindi ko maiwasang i-compare yung situation ko sa kanya, especially since pareho naman kaming closeted before—not until I was forced to come out because of her. Very convenient yung situation na yun for her.
Napapagod na ko pero gusto ko pa rin makita yung effort nya na hindi lang dahil convenience sakanya and baka ma feel ko na phase lang yung nafefeel ko na parang ayoko na
ps. i just want a honest opinion abt sa situation namin.