r/PHSapphics

Gusto ko nalang maging single ulit ghaadd haha. Sorry, Lord. Context: LDR kami, bago lang naging kami. She's ahead of me, heading thirty, and ako mid 20s.
Siguro ganito na fefeel ko kase wala masyadong deep connections. And, also, I bended stuff just for her. I thought okay lang yun, like iniintindi ko nalang yung end nya. Like having this thought na you can't have it all in a one perfect package. Okay naman sya, kaso wala eh. I crave for more eh. Yung tipong hindi lagi ako yung sumasubmit, yung tipong hindi ako yung laging nag iisip sa anong gusto or pwedeng pag usapan. I dunno. I guess I don't really love her that much. I don't even see her as my lifetime person.

Kung ikaw nasa position ko, ano gagawin mo?

you will go back and back and back and you will never understand why but one day you will wake up on a random Thursday and say 'this isn't how i want to be loved for the rest of my life' and move on.

What do you do when parents insist on attending singles events?

Do you still attend?

I think there’s one coming up this week. I think it’s probably easier to just attend.

Ako lang b? Are there other members of the community out there who attend?

Napapagod ako sa setup namin na parang ako lang yung nasa relationship namin. I’m always the one who understands, gives patience, and puts in effort. Tapos bigla niyang naisipang bumawi in a way na gusto ko before, pero hindi ko na hinihingi ngayon, and bigla na lang akong naubos.

Hindi ako makatanggi kasi nagi-guilty ako, kahit feeling ko hindi naman niya sinasadya mang-guilt trip. She wants me to be someone na loud and proud na girlfriend, which I already am, pero siya hindi niya magawa kasi closeted pa siya. I’m not compelling her to come out naman, pero minsan naiisip ko lang hindi ko maiwasang i-compare yung situation ko sa kanya, especially since pareho naman kaming closeted before—not until I was forced to come out because of her. Very convenient yung situation na yun for her.

Napapagod na ko pero gusto ko pa rin makita yung effort nya na hindi lang dahil convenience sakanya and baka ma feel ko na phase lang yung nafefeel ko na parang ayoko na
ps. i just want a honest opinion abt sa situation namin.

I can't believe I'm finally saying this but I find my friends sooo HOT. I mean they know I do in the friend way but damn nawewet ako pag naiisip sila.

26F bifemme here. I go to pole dance classes frequently and so do my friends. We're all pretty close, open with each other. There's me (Erin), Cara, and Thea. We've been friends for over 2 years and been going to classes.

I'm kind of curvy, onti na lang toned na yung katawan. I'm strong and can lift myself and others. Cara is older and petite but has a large chest, fit and toned ang body and medyo maputi. Thea naman has a curvy body and very fair skin with plump lips.

Recently di kami gaano nakakapagkita dahil busy sa ibang commitments ang isa't isa. I felt na namiss ko sila so I said class kami and they agreed. Class came and magkakatabi kami ng spot. As the coach was teaching the choreo, napapansin ko sila and shit sobrang sarap nila tignan. They looked so hot! Cara was wearing blavk cyclings and a bra while Thea was wearing a white matching set. Lahat kami nakatuwad and their asses were PERFECT. Ang juicy. Later on, napunta si Carasa harap ko, her legs were stretched na nakatayo na siya but nakatuwad yung upper body niya. My face was right in front of her ass.

During runs, nagkaron ng moment where nagfreestyle kaming 3. Nagkataon na sabay sabay kami magpperform as a group. When it was time to freestyle, we had a pretty hot and erotic moment. Parts of our bodies touched and ramdam ko yung init ng katawan nila.

After class, nauna na umuwi si Thea. May routine kami ni Cara na ihahatid ko siya pag wala siyang dalang kotse. On the way to her house, nagchichikahan kami about sa work namin (same work kami). Nagrarant kami sa isa't isa and nagugulat sa mga baon na chika. We reached her house. Nagpark ako sa labas ng gate nila and patapos na chika session namin. Nagpaalam na siya at lumapit para yakapin ako. We hugged each other tight.

"Thank you babe. I love you ha." sabi niya habang hinalikan niya cheek ko at umalis na. She was so warm, sobrang soft din lalo ng skin niya. Fuck. Before I left, hinintay ko siya makapasok sa gate nila. Tangina I felt I got wet and when I got home, nagsession na lang ako alone sa bathtub... Grabe kayo.

Am I wrong for feeling this way?

hello! san ba usually nag hahang out ang mga bading? gusto ko makatry ng organic encounter. hindi yung sa chat lang tapos meet up. wala lang try lang. hahaha. parang mahirap na kasi makakita ng matino ngayon sa online eh. so at least pag sa personal malalaman mo na agad kung swak kayo.

need ng go to spots sa metro manila, cebu and davao. so comment kayo lahat please. lol

So I have noticed a lot of people are lonely and not really their best self on here. Ang hirap pala maging sapphic in many ways. HAHAHHAH na parang ayoko na mag hanap or mahanap pa. 😞 Do you guys give it all ba when you love? Bakit ba?! HAHA Why ALL? And now I'm left with nothing but thoughts of finally giving up being romantic and sweet. Are you numb too? Would you also choose to be numb? ambigat pala sa isip pag naging bading. 😞 AHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA nakakaiyaaak pero walang lumalabas. HAHAHA. naiinis na ako sa mga nakikita kong sweet na wlw couples kasi ako sweet naman ako pero bat wala? xxxx Should I just give up?

Sabi nila hindi daw totoo yung love at first sight pero MY GOODNESS OH Lordt i saw her in akihabara station going to platform 6.
She was about my height, 5’7 tall, blonde locks with black roots, kahawig ni megan ng katseye (no joke i swear), wearing a yellow cardigan and a navy blue shorts in mini polka pattern in an 8 degree weather ( i mean, wtf????).

Context:

At first, keber lang, we were lining up waiting for the elevator and btw i am with my friend nga pala. so nung pumasok na kami, ayun na nga. Habit ko kase tumingin dun sa parang convex na mirror sa mga elevator sa japan so nung pag tingin ko sa mirror, holy sht nakatingin din sya so nagkatitigan kami for like 3 secs and i was like 😳 LUH ATECCO BAKIT NAMAN GANON kinabog yung dibdib ko pero i didnt dwell kasi nga naman sino ba sya.

Tapos kwentuhan kami nung friend ko in tagalog na kesyo amoy yakiniku kami and amoy sya sa elevator. Then parang ang bagal nung elevator kaya nasabi ko na “uy papunta na ba tayo ng heaven?”

AND YOU WOULDNT BELIEVE MGA SIS, kase nag smile sya??? Na para bang pinay din sya kase gets nya yung pinag uusapan namin? So tinignan ko sya and WTF umiwas sya na para bang gusto nyang itago yung pag smile nya pero she didnt and smiled even more without looking at me???? And i said “ayan natawa na si ate”

But yes destiny has its own plan for us, biglang nag open na yung door ng elevator and it was already our cue to move out. In that split second,marami nang scenario yung nag play out sa isip ko. As in overthinking malala. Susundan ko ba sya? Kakausapin ko ba sya?

She went out first and i kinda played my nonchalant card, kunwari i dont care kung sang part ng platform ng train sya pipila.nag sslow down sya so i moved forward na and chose my own spot. I was in front of the line and guess what, she ended up standing on the other side of the train door beside me.

Who does that????? Ang dami kayang space. But anyway, i thought at the time na baka delulu lang ako so i never paid attention. And dyan nag start yung regret ko kase never did once i shot a glance at her kasi gaypanic malala ang ante nyo! And holy macaroni nung dumating yung tren, pumasok na kami and i stood at the far end side nung kabilang door para pwede mag lean sa gilid.

AND GUESS WHAT AGAIN. Motherfader. She stood on the other side ULET, face to face sakin.

I know.

Before you get mad, let me explain.
First, distracted ako with my friend kase galing kaming concert ng aespa so syempre, concert high and then confusion and gaypanic altogether, hindi nag work ang brain ko to simply say.

Second, hindi ako sure kung pinay ba talaga sya. I don’t want to assume esp kung nihonjin pala yon.

Lastly, i got shy. Like sobra. Ewan. Yes, i know. Sobrang stupid. Hayst.

Anyway, sa kakaoverthink ko (i was the one navigating for me and my friend going home), we ended up missing our stop!!!! I feel so embarrassed altogether and sabi ko sa friend ko, we’ll just go down sa next station.

But still, di pa din ako nag pay attention kay ategurl.

Hanggang sa nasa next station na kami and went out of it. I kinda rushed and had that last minute doubt…babalik ba ako? Iiwan ko ba yung friend ko?

So i looked back and the train doors were still open as if pinapabalik ako.

Until….

Ayun na nga. Nagsara na sya.

And finally, tinignan ko sya.

She was looking down and then looked at me.
And then all of a sudden,biglang naglabasan yung what ifs sa isip ko.

“Sana pala i asked her socials, or kahit name or whatever.”

Ayun.

My tragic tokyo experience.

It may sound OA but sht,paano ba mag move on? Mga 3 weeks ko na din ‘tong iniinda.
Less than 0.000001% yung chance namin magkita ulet and my friends were telling me it’s just “limerence” just get over it.

PERO TEH ANG HIRAP. Let me hear some real talk.

Hi i have this crush on a girl, saw her page randomly sa tiktok and followed her on instagram. She’s so attractive, like heart eyes ako haha. I took my chance to slide into her DMs and she replied but it was a little dry reply I think, but she did follow me back on instagram. My last message to her was something about being mutuals and what could be the next step? She replied “you tell me”, tapos di nako nag reply HAHAHAHAHAHA pero grabe pag stalk ko. I just got to terms with my sexuality after I dated a girl a year ago, since then I realized I was bi. Do you think the “you tell me” is like im interested or uninterested reply?

Like gusto ko na talagang ibuhos pagiging lover girl ko pero kasiii why can't i find someone that matches my effort and the kind of love i can offer? Puro mga nonchalant at avoidant nakikilala ko and then they'd tell you they're interested in you but won't make the effort to get to know you or actually spend time with you like ano ba? 😭😭 Bakit ang daming ganito? Fgkjshj at least try to get to know me?? Make me feel special maybe? Put in some effort? Tapos yung iba naman, magtatanong nga pero puro naman nsfw like gusto mo ba ko or gusto mo lang akong ikama?? It lowkey makes me feel like I'm just not worth the effort, na maybe they just don't like me enough to actually put in the work. 💔💔 Wow ang drama hshshshs basta miss ko na magpa-baby HAHAHAHAHA match my yearn!!

Heyall! I'm just here to ask for some good ol' wattpad wlw stories. Tropes I like are bossxemployee or profxstud. Tagalog or taglish please thank you!! :)) I have ran out of stuff to read 😭

We are both doctors and we are both wlw. I’m just wondering if this would work? We match each other’s energy. We have lots of similarities but we are currently away from each other. She’s in another city pursuing her dream residency. I’m about to enter residency as well next year. We are both gonna be very busy soon. I wanted to keep the connection/friendship. But I’m not sure if I should ask her out sometime soon or should I just let time dictate if we are truly meant to be together in the future? I’m not in a rush to enter a relationship too. And I haven’t had any partner pa my whole life so I’m not sure. But I really do wanna get to know her better.

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I don’t believe in religion, and for most of my life, I never really talked to God.

I’m one of those people who never wanted religion to dictate the way I live. Maybe because life gave me too many experiences that made me question if there really was a God listening at all. I kept asking questions until eventually, I stopped believing. During college, I’d sometimes accompany my best friend to church, but even then, I never understood what people meant when they talked about having a “personal relationship with God.” In my mind, if He is truly omniscient and all-knowing, why would I still need to speak?

Then I met my girlfriend.

And somehow, quietly, she changed something in me.

She’s faithful in a way that doesn’t feel performative or forced. Hindi siya ’yung tipong ginagawang personality ang religion. Instead, she lives gently, kindly, and with so much sincerity that being around her makes faith feel less intimidating and more human.

As I got to know her, I found myself wanting to get closer to God, not out of fear, not because someone told me to, but because loving her made me want to believe that there is still goodness worth praying to.

I started praying for her. For us.

The first time we went to church together, I caught myself crying while praying that maybe, just maybe, God would let me keep her in my life. I prayed for her happiness, for my family, for myself, and selfishly, I prayed that He wouldn’t take her away from me.

Last week, we went to church again. And there I was, teary-eyed for the second time, whispering prayers for her CPALE next week — praying that all her hard work finds its way back to her.

It’s strange.

Most of my life, I never talked to God.

But now, I find myself asking my devoted Christian best friend how to pray properly for the girl I love.

minsan I wonder if I’m really that hard to love, bcs wydm when I look around and realize ppl with the worst mindsets still manage to get into relationships so easily. like hello??? 😭😭 I try to love genuinely, communicate properly, and at may pake talaga ako when I’m w/ someone, yet somehow sincerity feels rarer than bare minimum effort these days urrrghhh 🫡🫡 o siguro ang tagal ko na rin single kaya bitter ako? aba ewan ko na lang pero okay bahala sila HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH 😁😁😁😁

Hello fellow sapphics! This is the weekly discussion thread where you can talk about anything going on in your lives, any thoughts or questions, whether sapphic-related or not.

R4R comments are allowed on the weekly threads ONLY. Flirt away or look for friends here every week. It's the weekend, find someone you can hang out with over coffee or watch a movie. Good luck!

I was with my partner for more than 13 years. Like most relationships, ours was never perfect. We had our share of happiness, struggles, growth, and pain. We built a quiet life together , a small world where it was just the two of us and our pets, who became our children in every way possible.

For years, we lived comfortably inside that little bubble. Safe. Stable. Content.

My partner was thriving in her career, and so was I. But between the two of us, I was more of the “wife” in the relationship. I handled most of the household responsibilities, took care of our pets, managed errands, and still balanced my own career at the same time.

It was exhausting sometimes, but I never complained because I believed I was happy.

At least, I thought I was.

Then one day, I attended a party alone because my partner already had plans of her own. That night, I unexpectedly met someone I already knew from college.

The moment I saw her walking toward me, something inside me woke up.

It sounds dramatic, but in that moment, it honestly felt like time slowed down. I was just staring at her while she approached me, and I swear it felt like there were butterflies surrounding her.

She was even more beautiful than I remembered.

A common friend ended up pairing us together throughout the party, so we spent hours talking about life, relationships, food, dreams, anything and everything. Time moved too fast. Before I knew it, my partner was already outside waiting to pick me up because we still had somewhere else to go.

But after that night, something had already changed in me.

I could not stop thinking about her.

There were nights when I would drunk-call her just to hear her voice, only to stay silent because I was too overwhelmed and intoxicated to speak. Sometimes I would make excuses just to leave the house, drive around alone, and call her while parked somewhere quiet.

One night she invited me out, but I already had prior commitments. The following week, I invited her, and this time she was unavailable.

That became our pattern for months.

Whenever we tried to see each other, something always got in the way. Schedules never aligned. Plans kept getting canceled at the last minute. It honestly started feeling like fate itself was pulling us apart before we could ever get too close.

There were many times I told myself to stop trying because every cancellation disappointed me deeply.

But somehow, every time she reached out again, I still felt excited.

We continued talking whenever we had the chance through calls, messages, random late-night conversations. And slowly, I realized something painful:

I was no longer emotionally present in my relationship.

Eventually, I decided to end things with my partner. I never told her there was someone else. I simply admitted to myself that I was no longer happy, and that hiding my feelings was slowly destroying me.

More than anything, I wanted freedom — freedom from secrecy, freedom from pretending, freedom to openly care for someone who had already taken space in my heart.

Then finally, after months of failed plans, we managed to spend time together.

Just the two of us.

Those six hours became one of the most unforgettable moments of my life.

I barely even noticed the place around us because I spent most of the time simply looking at her while she talked. She shared stories about her past, her dreams, her fears, and the kind of future she wanted for herself.

And that was when reality quietly broke my heart.

Because the future she dreamed of was not one I could give her.

She wanted a family. A traditional one. A life with a man, children, and everything that came with it.

In that moment, I already knew there was no point in confessing how deeply I felt for her.

I loved her enough not to make things complicated.

I would rather keep her in my life as a friend than risk losing her completely because of feelings she could never return.

So little by little, I started pulling away.

I stopped reaching out as much. I muted reminders of her. I even restricted her on social media for the sake of my own sanity and self-preservation.

But feelings do not disappear just because you try to silence them.

Until now, she still occasionally invites me out. And just like before, sometimes she cancels too.

Somehow, I have already gotten used to our complicated rhythm.

I mirror her energy now. Nothing more, nothing less.

But the truth is, I still think about her every single day. I still imagine impossible futures with her in quiet moments. And deep inside me, there is still sadness from knowing that no matter how deeply I feel, some people are simply not meant to become ours.

Today, my ex-partner and I are in good terms. We still share responsibilities for our pets — our children.

And despite everything that happened, I still hope all of us eventually find the kind of love and ending we truly deserve.

Maybe that is what love teaches us sometimes:

Not every person we deeply love is meant to stay.

And not every ending needs hatred to be real.

Sometimes people simply grow apart, meet the wrong person at the wrong time, or carry feelings they can never fully act upon.

And sometimes, loving someone quietly is the most painful love story of all.

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hi guys sorry uhm hello.
share ko lang na nababaliw lang ako kasi tuwing gabi nakakaramdam ako ng feeling na gusto ko na mag-jowa BUT I CANT CUZ I STILL HAVE MY WHOLE FUTURE AHEAD OF ME NA KAILANGAN KO MUNANG UNAHINNNNN. anyway, sa future baby ko diyan, alam ko na u feel lonely and need ng lambing but we need to wait for each other. we will eventually meet at the right time hehehe.

itulog ko na lang i2 :( 😊🙏🏻🫪🥺😭

Femme here!
Been trying to date this past few months sa dating apps and the sapphic event. Usually I got really attracted to softmasc kaso nga eto na nga nega exp ko.

1. Parang slowburn or usually not interested sila parang they would make you feel as an option lang.
2. Biglang ng ghoghost hindi nalang nagpaparamdam nawawala in the middle of convo
3. Confident naman akong maganda ako pero pag kausap ko sila I need to question it.
4. pafall lang 🤦🏼‍♀️
5. Usually sila ung nasa App pero may existing Jowa 🤦🏼‍♀️

Unlike sa Butch exp ko parang mas straightforward sila kaso ung preference ko talaga softmasc. Ang complicated lang talaga nilang kabonding. Anyone with the same experience ba? or Isolated case naman to ? hahaha