Is it normal to feel uninteresting/unwanted to them even if i know they love me?
(pls be kind im sad) i really do know they love me, i know that. it's js that sometimes i feel like they're not interested in me?? i feel like such a bad gf and i feel so guilty for feeling this way.
for example, usually ako nagsisimula ng convos. i usually ask questions first samin like "how are you, have you eaten, what are you doing..." the simple stuff. then they would reply with "idkk baby, im okay, im js playing, not yet, later". I feel bad for wanting them to excitedly chat me abt something. kung may nakita or naexperience syang exciting, it would feel nice to be shared sa akin. or if may random thought sya, ang cute lang kung ma-share sa akin.
it's not like they don't chat me. they do. they tell me "i love you, i miss you, wyd, whats on your agenda today" on normal boring days. i just miss cute, lambing chats.
naopen up ko na to sakanya multiple times, and it just ends up with me crying and feeling weirdly unsatisfied. nung inoopen up ko sakanya, they would ask me if i would want all their time, which is not the case at all. it's js nice to know about them esp when we're not tgt. they wld ask me kung ano dapat niyagawin to fix it. i would not know what to answer kasi,,,they do just enough naman, diba? they ask how im doing, they tell me they love me, etc. they do js enough. kaya naffrustrate ako na di ko maword out ano ba talaga gusto ko. last time i opened up, they told me na ganon naman kami lagi if di kami magkasama.
naiinis na ako sa sarili ko, i feel like a bad girlfriend, i feel guilty for wanting something pa, hindi ko na alam. ano ba dapat gawin ko? what else should i improve on myself? should i just get used to it kasi this is how adult relationships should be? i feel really immature for feeling this way