7 months clean and started a new job today.
I stopped cold turkey abusing my meds after nearly a decade 7 months ago. Today, I celebrated with a new more lucrative and higher paying career. The freedom of not counting meds, worrying about naps, ECT was overwhelming..
I wish I could convey how much better my life is now. I was terrified to quit. After 10 years of HEAVY absuse?! No way..i read the horror stories. But something had to give.
The first 3 months were the hardest but I told myself I dug this hole and I needed to get out of it no matter what. Every day I forced myself to get up, get ready, go to work, and do some type of physical activity, usually a hike and yoga.
My food choices were shite the first few months..then I locked in when I realized all these extra walks and yoga were causing me to lean out in a good way (I always been overweight).
In 7 months I've lost 47 lbs. I'm the healthiest I've ever been and I'm no spring chicken. I laugh freely. Smile more. My motivation? Yeah it could use some help but it's a trade off for being alive. When I abused my meds, I was waging a war against my body. Now I wage a kinder, more productive war by living a beautiful life.
This post is for all the lurkers like I was for SO many years that read that you can't feel good for years. Don't let that stop you like I did! I cannot wait to see what my life is like in 2 years. Dump the script. Come clean to your doc..get your ass to meeting and do the work. I mean this with love from my whole heart: I wish someone would have told me life could be good again MUCH sooner, but I wouldn't have listened. I hope anyone that made it through my rambles gathers some type of hope from it 💜