u/phoxyphaith

yes. love this cartoon and am rewatching currently. some goofiness okay, but i'm a little reserved with it i didn't really enjoy gravity falls for that reason. loved over the garden wall and will rewatch when i'm ready. i like that the arcs are pretty short too. i'd prefer just a season (or a couple) per story.

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but i'm a little flexible and am open to hearing broader suggestions as well.

Just read the rules. Y'all are strict here I like that.

I was in active recovery then not so recovery then lapsed my way all the way to relapse. I'm ready to see a dieitian again now, though. I forgot how bad this shit sucks.

I'm wondering if there's like a database I can search for dieitians? Like I just do a general search with DuckDuckGo, but it doesn't really give me results relevant to my query. I'm looking for something sort of specific. Along the lines of HAES-aligned/weight neutral/anti-diet care. After seeing a string of dieitians who seemed disordered and rigid in their suggestions (one literally told me to count calories for specific foods?? I was like 17 too 🙄), I want to protect myself and my recovery as best as possible.

The search is kinda hard, though, and I fear if it's too tedious I'll just say fuck it and give up/avoid it. While I'm experiencing relapse, I'm still early in it, and I want to start turning this around as soon as possible. I don't want to keep giving the ED more time to settle in.

Is there a website that can help me search for what I'm looking for? Like I truly can't just go see any dieitian 😭

difficulty difficulty difficulty

Videos, shows, movies, whatever. I'm not watching anything in fullscreen if I have the choice. It's easier for me to focus on the video that way. I start to zone out when it's in fullscreen like I'm looking at the screen, and I'm hearing these things, and I have no idea what's actually happening. Now I'm confused and tired and my brain feels numb. It's also overwhelming! The whole screen is just video? That's a lot I need some space. When the video is just a rectangle taking up a portion of the screen, I feel like I can focus on the video in more of its entirety. I can like actually take things in and really notice and understand and interpret. Having other things present outside of the video while not even engaging with those things makes it easier for my brain to actually engage with the video! 😁

Videos on YouTube and similarly platformed sites are a little trickier because if not in fullscreen, there will still be more videos (and even worse: potentially comments) in the suggested taking up the screen. Theater mode if available is the most comfortable way for me to watch videos on sites like those.

Video games are mostly an exception.

ETA: It looks like folks are starting to assume that this means something about how I'm functioning or my ability to pay attention in general, but this is just something I like to do that makes it easier for me. People put videos in fullscreen for focus, and I do the opposite. I have been diagnosed with ADHD, and I have experienced things that hinder my ability to initiate tasks or focus, but this isn't one of them. The solution is truly as easy as not having the video in fullscreen. This is different, I admit, but it's not bad, and it isn't indicative of my overall functionality.