u/pinkorchidblossoms

I've smoked for 20 years, 18 of which have been daily. For the last 3 months i've been waking up nauseous in the mornings and I suspect I'm developing CHS. I know I need to quit and I want to quit, but in a weird way it feels like I'm losing a close friend. A shitty friend, but dependable one. Weed was something that helped me cope with difficult times and to see things in a new perspective but ive learned all that i can from it and need to move on. I know it's killing my creativity and motivation. I don't have any dreams for the future because I've been living one toke at a time. My life isn't in shambles, but I'm just empty. Here's to day one. Thanks for listening