Need to rant idk what to do anymore
Hi all. This group has been amazing. Husband and I have been trying to conceive for 2 years now. I am so frustrated and angry with life and myself and my body. And it doesn’t help that everyone around me at work and family are getting pregnant. Ughhh. I have changed my diet. Been taking pills and supplements for 3 years. I exercise/walk a lot. Don’t drink or smoke.
I have gone through 4 egg retrievals. 3 retrievals at one clinic where they only were able to retrieve 5 eggs total. 1 aneuploid blast. Switched clinics cause my doctor was horrible. 2nd clinic did 4th retrieval. Doctor is amazing. Switched to a mini ivf cycle. They got 5 eggs. 3 were a blast. 2 were an aneuploid and 1 HLM. I went in for transfer day and I got the call my 1 HLM did not survive the thaw. I was shattered and heart broken. I am exhausted and tired. I always wanted children. I will be happy with 1 baby!! Just 1 that’s all I ask for!
We have to now pay out of pocket if we want to go through this again. Current clinic I am at said 1 retrieval will be about $20k. Can’t really afford that. CNY and RMA have package deals. Anyone had good experiences with CNY or RMA for ladies like us with DOR? TIA!