Can't escape feeling an urge to disappear
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I've lived in my small hometown for over 30 years and feel like I've become swallowed by it. I'm always known as someone's daughter, someone's sister, someone's friend of a friend, that lady who used to work in that place that closed years ago.
I'm also incredibly grateful for everything I have in my life. I love my family, I love my amazing group of friends. But something that always comes back into my life now and again is a craving for anonymity. To uproot my life and start again afresh.
Feeling it particularly at the moment as over the past couple of years I've experienced a lot of personal growth which means I feel like a different person in a lot of ways. I'm more confident in myself and my dreams, but feel like I'm being held back by everyone's ideas of who I already am.
During a recent period of unemployment I applied for jobs that would have meant moving and was unsuccessful for all of them. Currently employed again in a job that feels like a great fit, but also feeling like I missed out somehow by not up and leaving.
That's all. Anyone else feel this way?