Im confused about mbti in general (
Like genuinely how can you tell what mbti or cogntive functions you use if you're only able to believe that you're a certain way or when you ask other people they have certain biases because of your age and gender (f 17 btw).
On one hand I have co workers and friends compare me to yuji itchadori because of my childishness (most my coworkers are emotionally 16 year old so there's that)
And on the other hand my family just says I talk alot and I talk too much but most the time it feels like I'm spending a lot of time in my head and just guessing a lot of things so I would think I have introverted intuition but then I just have random spouts of ideas and it just completely smoothers the idea of Ni.
Most the time it feels like I have the words for how I feel or what im thinking but when I tell them to family members or friends they just get real quiet and act like I didnt say anything or say im too much (Ex: what if neurolink accidentally gets controlled by ur brain when asleep and starts opening tabs thinking ur awake) and when im working and like shit just gets too much i won't back away from the station but I will just get overwhelmed and start drowning (metaphorically) And just my enviorment around me starts getting unorganized and messy.
My friends and coworkers I look creepy when im not smiling and other people at work say im smiling all the time and happy, but I don't feel that in the inside its just in the moment of just being away from inside my head with other people I just tend to get happy and giddy, but I struggle like a lot and I mean like a lot with conversations with people who are oblivious or authoritarian I will always end the conversation because they either get distracted or try to turn a conversation into a lecture about how they know best and what to do and not to do but at the same time I tend to do what their doing as well so it makes me even more confused. Also I can learn basically anything but I wouldn't be able to master it, it feels like I never can but i can learn/do.
I guess what im trying say is I feel lost in this whole mbti stuff and I think im only explaining or seeing my conscious actions and when people say my unconscious actions it feels like their misinterpreting me because im younger so I can't tell whats real and whats not real
maybe ill be able to figure it out idk it just this been a mess in my head for a while just off and on I just need a board to bounce what I could be.
Most my life friends and teachers say I'm extremely happy/giddy with them but it feels more like a reaction to them and not when im away from them.
Im thinking esfp but idk If you need more information ill be happy to give it