u/plain_noodle

How do other addicts manage to forgive themselves or even just live with themselves? I’m only 23 and I feel like I’ve destroyed every relationship I’ve touched, hurt every friend I’ve made and squandered every opportunity that was ever given to me.
I’m trying to get clean again and have a few days but I still feel like the biggest piece of shit around. My health has also been declining and I worry about burdening the one person who’s stayed by my side with the consequences of my almost decade of constant use. How do I not feel like my partner would be better off with anyone else and how can I possibly learn to live with everything I’ve done?