u/pootpapichulo

I F21 have had mental health problems from a very early age (symptoms appeared from the age of 6 due to the abuse i endured as a child). At the age of 15 i finally had the courage to ask for help since i realised my mental health was ruining my life and i wanted to get treated. I got recommended a psychiatrist that works at the public hospital in my town and at first he diagnosed me with Mixed Disorder of Conduct and Emotions, Unspecified
and prescribed me Olanzapine and Escitalopram. When i was younger i wasn't very disciplined with my medication so i didn't regularly take them but at the age of 20 i finally realised that i either get medicated or i lose myself completely, i went back to the same doctor and he prescribed me the same medications as before which i wasn't very happy about because even tho i wasn't consistent with my medication i could tell they weren't helping me at all. So i was very dedicated and took my meds everyday at the same time and never skipped them no matter how lazy i was. But heres the problem, instead of getting better from them the only thing i got were the side effects (loss of libido, brain fog, nausea, migraines, weight gain, abnormally high appetite, constipation, slowed metabolism, stomach pain when i ate food etc...) so when i finished my pills which were enough for 2 months, i quit them cold turkey because i apparently value my physical health way more than i value my mental health. I experienced many side effects from quitting my meds cold turkey but i pushed through them and it was straight up hell for two months until my appointment for a consultation got approved. So heres the actual problem, my psychiatrist is naturally very arrogant and apathetic which at first i was okay with because "hey he isn't a therapist he's not there to validate me he's just there to prescribe me meds". He also made me cry during my consultation when i was 15 because he invalidated my feelings and told me that "theres nothing wrong with me and that im just a bad person". Anyways today i went in and started telling him how badly the medication was affecting my body and how i wanted him to get me on other meds, guess what he said? he told me "i can't get you on different meds because who knows, maybe you might sue me if something goes wrong and guess what i'm going to get you on the same meds but a lower dose" and then he asked me "Are you going to take them?" and i bluntly told him NO i'm not taking them, he looked at me and went "well wether you take them or not is not my problem thats up to you"
i felt very invalidated and attacked for some reason that i was on the verge of crying (probably had a panic attack but I'm so used to them that i cant even tell when i have them)
do you think he was right and i overreacted, or do you think i should see someone else that actually cares about my health?

I F21 have had mental health problems from a very early age (symptoms appeared from the age of 6 due to the abuse i endured as a child). At the age of 15 i finally had the courage to ask for help since i realised my mental health was ruining my life and i wanted to get treated. I got recommended a psychiatrist that works at the public hospital in my town and at first he diagnosed me with Mixed Disorder of Conduct and Emotions, Unspecified
and prescribed me Olanzapine and Escitalopram. When i was younger i wasn't very disciplined with my medication so i didn't regularly take them but at the age of 20 i finally realised that i either get medicated or i lose myself completely, i went back to the same doctor and he prescribed me the same medications as before which i wasn't very happy about because even tho i wasn't consistent with my medication i could tell they weren't helping me at all. So i was very dedicated and took my meds everyday at the same time and never skipped them no matter how lazy i was. But heres the problem, instead of getting better from them the only thing i got were the side effects (loss of libido, brain fog, nausea, migraines, weight gain, abnormally high appetite, constipation, slowed metabolism, stomach pain when i ate food etc...) so when i finished my pills which were enough for 2 months, i quit them cold turkey because i apparently value my physical health way more than i value my mental health. I experienced many side effects from quitting my meds cold turkey but i pushed through them and it was straight up hell for two months until my appointment for a consultation got approved. So heres the actual problem, my psychiatrist is naturally very arrogant and apathetic which at first i was okay with because "hey he isn't a therapist he's not there to validate me he's just there to prescribe me meds". He also made me cry during my consultation when i was 15 because he invalidated my feelings and told me that "theres nothing wrong with me and that im just a bad person". Anyways today i went in and started telling him how badly the medication was affecting my body and how i wanted him to get me on other meds, guess what he said? he told me "i can't get you on different meds because who knows, maybe you might sue me if something goes wrong and guess what i'm going to get you on the same meds but a lower dose" and then he asked me "Are you going to take them?" and i bluntly told him NO i'm not taking them, he looked at me and went "well wether you take them or not is not my problem thats up to you"
i felt very invalidated and attacked for some reason that i was on the verge of crying (probably had a panic attack but I'm so used to them that i cant even tell when i have them)
do you think he was right and i overreacted, or do you think i should see someone else that actually cares about my health?