u/poptart3019

Hey, I am 17F and I recently just had my birthday. Ever since summer started I’ve learned people who I thought were my close friends didn’t care about me, and I’ve realized my family doesn’t really pay attention or care about me either. I’m not going to be successful as I’m going into my grade 12 year and realizing that without friends and family and good grades I’m nothing. I’ve just been crying and eating all summer, and my parents keep scolding me for being lazy and not caring about my future or them. I do care. But I’ve just cared so much about so many things I’m just so tired. Even the girl I was recently talking to ghosted me.
Something else to mention is that I’m fat. I’m fat and I have an ugly face, so nothing going for me in the looks department either.

I miss who I used to be, I thought I had caring friends and a caring family but I’ve realized that they only care when I could provide something for them. For friends it was funny company and for family it was good grades and being a useful child. Now that I’m going through things harder than ever nobody wants to even interact with me without getting angry at me. I feel so awful because I put in so much effort to get zero support in return. I keep thinking of how I’m going to kill my self because genuinly I can’t think of any other outcome where I would be satisfied. I just feel so disgusted with myself and embarrassed on how I could let myself believe I finally had people that cared about me in my life. I’ve been researching and planning and I’ve come to the conclusion I’m probably going to kill myself by atleast January or next summer. I feel so attention seeking doing this, I’ve been taught my whole life that reaching out for help has only come with punishment so I’m really scared. I don’t know what I need anymore, I guess what I wanted was for people I cared about to care about me but that’s done now so yeah, anyway thank you for reading

I’m a 16 yr old lesbian and I feel so disgusting,I recently confessed my feelings to a close friend who didn’t deny, and said she wouldn’t mind trying. she confused me so much because she never reciprocated my feelings fully and led me on for months. Even now she won’t leave me alone and I feel disgusting. i asked her on a date and she avoided me. Am I doing something wrong? It’s my first time doing this and I’m very unattractive compared to her so I feel like I’m super gross and pervy. I feel like whenever I’m around her or other girls it’s my fault for thinking of them or just wanting somebody. On top of other things like her best friend being homophobic and religious I just don’t know how to handle it and feel happy again, just don’t know how to handle all this. Sorry if nothing makes sense I might’ve forgotten stuff