u/pun_princess_

something med school did not cover/

someone’s daughter, someone’s mother/

hold your hand through plastic now/

doc, i think she’s crashing out/

and some things you just can’t speak about

only twenty minutes to sleep, but you dream of some epiphany/

just a single glimpse of relief, to make some sense of what you’ve seen

epiphany came on my tswift shuffle this morning (right after wildest dreams lol, talk about whiplash) and i legit started crying thinking about covid and the experiences of frontline health workers.

i just got into med school and am starting this fall. my dad is a physician and was a frontline worker through the worst of the covid pandemic. he caught a terrible case of covid while working. he actually tore his abdominal muscles from coughing so hard. thankfully he made it through, but it was terrifying.

while i’m really excited about med school, things like the lyrics of epiphany temper that excitement with fear and sadness. still, i am firm in my conviction that this is the right path for me.

i know the RV/giant hand ep is a bit polarizing, but as someone who recently finished my like 7th rewatch of the whole series, i have come to really appreciate some things about it.

i love that it’s frankie, aka the “new abed” (or in my mind, the other most autism-coded character) who is able to get through to abed by meeting him where he’s at (“THIS is the flashback, you’ve flashed back from the future to save this moment + prevent the apocalyptic world of the Space Elders”). it’s so poignant, especially when jeff spent the whole ep antagonizing abed for trying to “flash back.”

and i REALLY love that it’s abed who gives the “winger speech” at the end. it’s one of my favorite speeches of all; the giant hand reminding us when to hold onto things, and when to let them go.

in a way, it can be seen as a callback to the first ep, where jeff and abed “see each other’s value.” jeff devalues abed’s experience during this whole episode, but ultimately it’s abed who brings everyone together. it speaks to both the social challenges of neurodivergence and the beautiful, special, valuable ways it can affect the world and the people we love.

during the video game ep w pierce’s inheritance, re: gilbert being pierce’s half-brother:

Pierce: “But you’re half...*splutters*…WHITE!”

Jeff: “Nice save”