u/quackthe3rd

So I need help or suggestion, anything will be helpful.

My dog was having these very bad clusters so vet upped his pheno doses and now he is extremely hungry, just looking for food all the time. But that's a side effect of pheno which I know about.

But he is also quite restless and wouldn't sleep at all plus he is scared of all of us and runs away whenever he seems anyone coming in his direction. And I am worried this will trigger his clusters again.

Now, I did ask my vet for anxiety meda but they don't have it in stock yet and asked me to wait for a few days, but I just cannot wait, because don't want thise clustera returning any time soon.

I am watching my dog slowly die. I feel helpless but more so selfish for trying to keep him with me. He is constantly having seizures and it's not stopping, meds failed, vet visits are useless. I just don't understand, he was getting better at this but suddenly these clusters cam out of nowhere.

My eyes are dry from both sleep and tears and strangely it's so cold, it's like I'm only feeling this much cold and it's like death is right here, i can feel the coldness to my bones and i don't even feel this much cold even in winters.

He is only 3, I want to keep him with me but that's selfish I believe but letting him die and not help seem selfish also. But what else can I do?

I just keep clicking pictures of him hoping niw his breath will stop, slowly preparing myself through each picture.

I'm gonna be completely alone after him. I got him after my last dog died and I was so depressed. At the time I stopped everything, I took a drop year, no friends (which I never had) and then he came one day and changed everything.

Honestly I'm not someone who believe in religion and have my doubts about god, i feel selfish asking god for help. Idk how that' s relevant right now.

I think this will be goodbye with my boy Bucky.

So my dog had 5 clusters with 1-2 hr gap each in between...vet gave keppra (levetiracetam), he is already on phenobarbital...he is so confused, drooling, not eating or drinking, kinda scared also and keep looking at his back....so how long will it take for him to get back to at least eating and drinking?