u/queergayhole

I was having an anger surge and talked on a crisis line about wanting to kill and rape everyone in the world and that I understood why people shoot up schools and why Ted Bundy raped those people. My roommate overheard and anonymously complained and they all got sent to a different room. Bad, I know. But hear me out.

Just kidding, I don’t have an excuse. Just a bad mental health day. Is this kind of thing visible to professors, and doesi t usually lead to expulsion or suspension?

Going through a situation rn at school where I’ve gained a reputation for being unstable. Calleda crisis lien the other day because I was really pissed off and having violent thoughts, roommate complained, and now the roommates have moved to another room. they come in sometimes but don’t say anything to me. now I feel like everyone knows and I’m back to how I was a couple years ago, the throwaway crazy guy that everyone knows is going nowhere.

not sure if I will be expelled over this. the more I try and gain reassurance from admin the more crazy they think I am. it’s so hard not to keep picking at it and tryign to get info from people, but that just keeps the cycle escalating.

Overheard my RA talking about me on the phone with someone, and she said something about “room condition” like I was being profiled. Now all my behavior is under a microscope. It just sucks 😞 I am so tired of occupying this stigmatized place in groups. my small regressions create giant waves.