u/questionthethghts

I’ll admit to everything here . I have spent a better part of 2 1/2 months being my downest of bad of all time on this crap. I’m 25, I started when I was 16. 16-21 i was using kratom during the era where you could buy shit online , and the internet was telling you there was nothing bad about it . Being a kid you’re very naive to self reinforcing dialogue like that. Quite literally after Turing 21 I was told a kava bar opened up near my house . I went because the person I started my addiction with ( my step brother) was working there. I went and basically tore my whole life apart from March to December of 2022. Then I had a massive break up and bucked up and pulled my shit together . I just went to kava after a two week break in January. Didn’t go back to kratom . I stayed in the kava only phase for 6 months until physical side effects became too much of a problem to bare. I switched to alcohol ( genius i know ) , I then spent a year in heavy drinking. Until… I got in trouble with my career, and potentially lose it unless I got treatment. Anyways, went totally stone cold for a year. And the. Flipped back to kratom because I thought it wasn’t a big deal. Next thing you know a year and half later from restarting I try to stop for 48 hours. Bam I have a seizure and crash my car. I have to pause work for 2 months . I find out I have a brain tumor, been there since I was 19 or so . Anyways during this work break I cut back and get somewhat healthy again. But once work started up again , I started using those damn blue bottles . Next thing you know I’m upping 15 bottles a day. And lost 30 lbs in 2 months . My family, gf, and friends are all looking at me and talking to me with the concern of someone being in hospice . Everytime I go to do anything g with anyone, a part of my brain is saying , make this a good time, it might be the last they have with you . Fuck man, this is so so so bad, I’ve never been so low that I think I’m putting my death on the table fr. I’m scared man.

Hey so I would like to let everyone know to be diligent in your caution when it comes to getting off this shit. I stopped kava and kratom intake 3 months ago. Jk I relapsed and now I have to slow down again.
But what I wanted to let everyone know is the physical effect kava has on your brain as well as kratom.

On Mother’s Day may 10th, I was driving away from a brunch with my gf mom. I black out and don’t remember anything, I just wake up to my nice new car in the back of another car.

Well to my suprise as I’m being driven to the hospital, I’m told I just had a seizure that lasted 5 mins . I was so confused, why would that be the case?

Well after disclosing my use, my doctor tells me , oh yeah even tho you didn’t use those substances, the withdrawal symptoms led your body to have a seizure . I was so thrown off, how?!

The doctor explains, opioids or just kratom alone can lower your seizure threshold. And when you quit kava which is basically a benzodiazepine. You will have a gaba tolerance in your brain, and when you go cold turkey , your brain will produce an over abundance of glutamate (the chemical in your brain that makes you awake and reactive) . You can imagine too much of the active, and a lower resistance to preventing a seizure can cause a seizure.

Just letting yall know, if you ain’t feeling well when you stop. Don’t be driving, or doing any high risk activities!