Sitting at clinic with many pregnant women, a pregnant nurse too. One of the pregnant woman just found out she's having TWINS.
TWINS. And I can't even have one. This sucks. 😭
Bad people are living well. Meanwhile everything goes from bad to worse for me. If this is all a test I fail.
29F and 33M. No known issues though I have not done a HSG. Anyone had success on medicated cycles after an early miscarriage? I have been responding well to treatment (Avg. 2 mature follicles on Letrozole, trigger with Ovidrel, support with Duphaston) so it's really hard when all I've gotten are negatives.
I kind of want to move to IUI just to try something else. I feel so worried and I have a really bad fear of medical procedures (hence the avoidance of getting a HSG done...) and don't think I am strong enough for IVF. Please share what worked for you if you have been in a similar situation. I'm on Metformin 1000mg and also have hypothyroidism managed with medication.
Have been struggling with infertility for 2+ years now. I have PCOS but have been responding well to treatment, even got pregnant late last year but that ended in an early miscarriage. Have just been seeing negative pregnancy tests since then and can't help worrying that He does not want to give me a child.
I beg Him in my duas every single day to please bless me with a healthy pregnancy and child and promise Him I will raise the child to be a steadfast Muslim. I speak to Him all the time and had a very strong relationship, but its been difficult since this challenge. I was also diagnosed with another chronic condition and it feels like nothing is going right for me.
I really don't want to have to do IVF, my whole life I have been terrified of medical procedures even blood tests and now I have to undergo so many. I try to not lose my iman and trust His plans for me but its getting harder and harder. What could be the reason for showing me that my treatments are working, even letting me get pregnant once, only for me to lose that baby and not be able to get pregnant since then?
Meanwhile I also have to be around many others who suddenly all manage to get pregnant. Where's the mercy in this? This struggle is destroying me, its consuming all my thoughts and shaitan has been whispering many terrible things in my ears. I don't want to do anything anymore and I feel like I am not even meant to be married.
Others sleep around, accidentally get pregnant and even do abortions. They somehow engage in premarital relationships and get pregnant while trying their best not to get pregnant. I understand Allah withholding other joys in this dunya from Muslims but kids? Getting pregnant? I am struggling to understand and I find it so hard to be patient after so many setbacks.
Please don't tell me there are people who have it worse. I know there are and I am not saying I have the biggest problems in the world. But in my life currently this is absolutely ruining everything for me and I need some support and advice. Even success stories. Not a lecture.