How tf do I survive ts
Hi so little background info, I’m 17, go to a private school and parents are in a legal battle of divorce and custody and my mum is most likely to win because there’s documented abuse cases against my dad.
My mum makes me feel guilty for enjoying my life or going out with friends etc etc. At the beginning of this week I went on a school trip to another country for 4 days and returned last night. My mother was last to pick me up despite me letting her know when we’d arrive(after a flight btw). My bsf’s parents waited with me until she came and she didn’t even get out of the car or anything like how all the other parents rushed out of their’s to give their children hugs and greet them. Now she says it’s my fault and that she had the best time of her life and should send me to stay with my dad. When they were still together she’d threaten to send me to boarding school and because I had no access to the internet I believed how she described it and was extremely scared and now have attachment issues.
Listen I know my mum has her personal issues because of abuse and wasn’t as privileged as me growing up but why is it that for everything that goes wrong I’m everyone punching bag, physically and verbally? Why don’t I get the same amount of love and appreciation as my sister does? Why me? I’m really tired of this, the antidepressants aren’t even working anymore lol