Can someone help/give advice on half support
Heyo, Im a ftm in desperate need of any advice, in short, I came out at 13 (am now 22), my mother said she supports me, but at the same time never respected my pronouns and keeps dead naming till today, I told her multiple times im not okay with it and it hurts yet nothing really changes, recently she has been calling me her "Manly daughter", like shes trying to give me a chill pill? On the other hand she bought me a binder when I said my old one is just not doing its job anymore, she didnt tell me or anything she just bought it. When I sat her down to talk about the legal stuff like name change, she kinda blew up and told me I will not be changing my name because my dead name that she picked is too pretty for it. I tried to tell her its just not a name for me and if she wanted she could pick out a new name for me (even tho I already have a preferd name) so she will calm down and accept me for who I am, that was 4 months ago and she never spoke about it again, just keeps saying "thats my manly daughter". I am confused whether this is support from her side or I dont know, just trying to somehow get me "back to how I was before".
For other context, I havent found a therapist yet that will take me on in this matter