u/ratgym

Hi, does anyone know where to buy those thin plastic boxes Bookoff and Mandarake sometimes use to store manga series? I've asked in Bookoff and they didn't know either lol

I went on a holiday and I had to get on a plane there and back. I'm generally scared of flying anyway, but this time I was fucking terrified. I started being scared about 24 hours before my flight and it continued all the way until I landed, both times. The second time I almost had a panic attack due to turbulence. I'm terrified of the plane getting tossed around by turbulence, I'm terrified of something breaking, I'm terrified of crashing, and I'm also terrified of falling through the floor. I'm very afraid of heights and often I have the same fear of falling through the floor in multiple story buildings. I'm also terrified of buildings tipping over. Anyway, I live in Japan and there have recently been a lot of earthquakes and two typhoons. I was not impacted, aside from turbulence on my return flight, but my nervous system has not recovered. I'm in a state of panic constantly. I get the feeling of falling through the floor/building tipping over/an earthquake happening and I keep freaking out about it. I'm so drained and I feel sick. I'm also afraid of my thoughts, I feel like I'll manifest disaster if I try to do mental exposure therapy. I feel like I'm spiraling. And I have more flights coming up in a couple of months, and I'm already afraid of them, and I'm afraid of being afraid because being so distressed was awful. What do I need to do to relax??