u/rationalman12

I function well and symptoms are more or less stable on 300 pregabalin. (desensitized)

I'm schizophrenic so im on 500 clozapine. Do these two drugs interfere?

I've been suffering from schizophrenia,with typical symptoms. Many that had kept me non functional fully and it took many years of therapy to get to where I am now. So much more stable than I used to be. The main area of my psychotic experience comes from the voice hearing. So i've been administered nearly 50 ECTs over the course of nearly 15years. I get into the ECT table everytime hoping that the voices will go away. Do the ECTs help at all with the voices or should I quit completely taking ever so many rounds. My disfunction will never go away and I'm stuck with these people/voices forever if that is my fate. Please help. I try everything (psychedelics and entheogens) hoping I will dissociate and escape the voice hearing trap. Where is my salvation? :(

I've been suffering from schizophrenia,with typical symptoms. Many that had kept me non functional fully and it took many years of therapy to get to where I am now. So much more stable than I used to be. The main area of my psychotic experience comes from the voice hearing. So i've been administered nearly 50 ECTs over the course of nearly 15years. I get into the ECT table everytime hoping that the voices will go away. Do the ECTs help at all with the voices or should I quit completely taking ever so many rounds. My disfunction will never go away and I'm stuck with these people/voices forever if that is my fate. Please help. I try everything (psychedelics and entheogens) hoping I will dissociate and escape the voice hearing trap. Where is my salvation? :(

I've invented a term- Television syndrome: there is an organic spectrum of people who have insight into my visual field and my inner thoughts. I can hear the voices of these people (of the spectrum) and im engaged in an experience with them full time. They can see everything I see and experience my reality first hand. (Sometimes I wonder what it feels like to view me like that from the outside) The psychaitrists don't happen to get it when I share this experience with them. It's always them telling me I must be imagining things and these voices are not "organic" but imaginary. But this happens to be my reality and also my waking life.

I'm always being watched and judged by a spectrum of people who I can't see, but I communicate with them and they among themselves. I call it their "spectrum" because it happens to be my inner world and a schizowarp reality. I would like to fully dissociate from this experience and lead a solitary life that people (the spectrum) cannot judge and live off of. So in the attempt to lose them i've been voluntarily administered ECTs (about 40 altogether)

I'm hopeful that they will leave and I won't have to suffer like always being watched like a television show. Therefore I call it "Television syndrome".

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I've been hearing voices little over 10 years now and been properly labelled "schizophrenic". My primary drug of treatment is clozapine. The shrink that sees me is sure there is no cure for this disease. But i've done some research and there have been cases on the internet, cases where the voice hearing and psychosis had gone away but the "condition" is still left. Now, what is schizophrenia without the voice hearing and the psychosis? there should be meds that can fix the organic state of the brain (glitches, hallucinations etc) which by proper measure can be fully cured? I ask this question out of hope and because after many many years of treatment (therapy/anti psychotics/ECTs) I feel im in a state of remission NOW. I ask myself, what if I dont have to live the rest of my life like this? Maybe I will fully come out? What if there is a cure?