Advice needed ( don’t judge my age)
The post is very long i am sorryyyy
So hie i am F19 i had been in a relationship with my ex M22 we have been in together for almost 2.5 years. this year has been a rollercoaster for me. We had been having issues since almost a year the issues are very small like he doesn’t give me time and attention. When i say i need his time and stuff he ignores them and blames it on me instead which makes me even more upset. Whenever we fight for whatever reason (mostly the reason is him not giving enough time and efforts) he always says that i am the one who is overthinking stuff etc etc. in 2.5 years of our relationship there was 3 birthdays of mine and he forgot 3 of them and didn’t do anything. Whenever we went out on a date he always used to come late like a hour late on every single date. (I said these for context that how he much he didn’t used to put effort). Whatever so i was depressed for almost 1.5 years as i started college after HSC. And didn’t made much friends in the starting and i had some family issues as well i used to tell him that i feel depressed i feel empty i feel alone and stuff but he didn’t used to take them seriously. In the starting of this year i was so depressed that i became suicidal i started to have suicidal thought and as he is my only safe person i told him that i am suicidal and stuff yet again he didn’t take it seriously. So in april just 3 months before my HSC i tried suicide but survived lol whatever when i was in the hospital bed i told him i tried suicide and his first reaction was getting mad at me he said some stuff that made me cry so much that day i decided that i will break up with him but i wasn’t in the place to breakup as my emotions were all over the places after my attempt he came to my house to see my with the permission of my mother. My mother and brother was there too. I went to a psychiatrist and was diagnosed with BPD (borderline personality disorder) which is one of the reason that i needed attention from my FP. After my hsc i broke up with him and we were in no contact for almost a month in that month i missed him so much i was feeling empty i was feeling like i lost the only comfort place i had . He was hospitalised for his health issues recently so i called him to check up on him so we have been talking i have been thinking about getting back with him again
So i want advice should i get back with him?