Lord, give me strength… kay basin dili na running ang cardio nako ani 😭
I’ve been weirdly at peace lately. Like… gym before sunrise, running after work, drinking more water than alcohol, sleeping early-ish, avoiding situationships. Character development era kuno.
And honestly? It feels good. Quiet. Healthy. Stable.
But dear God… nobody warned me that being physically active would make me this horny. 😭
Like excuse me??? I started running to heal, not to suddenly miss post-sex conversations with some random guy na mas dako pa ang emotional baggage kaysa notch niya… ayy. I miss the intimacy after sex almost more than the sex itself. Yung hihiga lang kayo after tapos biglang magiging philosophers and comedians while naka-aircon at emotionally unavailable.
And before anyone says “just hook up,” TRUST ME, I know how easy it is. Especially as a woman here on Reddit. Isang post mo lang, parang job hiring agad inbox mo. 😭 But also… the diseases nowadays are terrifying. Every week may bago akong kinakatakutan. At this point, my health anxiety is stronger than my libido… slightly.
So now I’m genuinely considering buying a dildo. Pero shet. Iba pa rin talaga pag may tao. HAHAHAHA.
Anyway, if anyone else here is in their “healing but still extremely human” era… pakigalaw ang baso. 🤣