u/rgent006

Title. I know being emotionally neglected as a child probably has something to do with this. I struggle with the idea that 100 people would travel across country to come to a 1 day event to celebrate my soon to be spouse and me. I have never felt I “deserved” the attention and any sort of planning my fiancée involves me in just makes me seriously anxious. I want to be excited because we are tying the knot after 10 years but I didn’t grow up with “boy meets girl, fall in love, marriage, baby, happily ever after” as a reality in my life (parents, aunts etc never had weddings or lasting relationships) I dreamt about a loving functional relationship and I have that.