u/rhinedottore

Even tho I am taking meds my anxiety has become so worse that I cannot even do daily tasks. I honestly miss my depression so bad because anxiety is so exhausting. I miss depression very dearly, like a wife yearning for her husband in war. I am taking Norodol, Zedprex, Xanax (xanax helps me the most) already. I am also taking vitamin D and magnezinc supplements but nothing seems to help. I miss my Major Depression so much I wish I had it again (with my physical health being ok of course) I didn’t have anything until March 25th where I strained too much in bathroom, I triggered tachycardia, facial spasm for a month etc. ( I starved myself for 3 months to lose weight) I developed health anxiety. Honestly I never dealt with anxiety this much before and if anything I was a careless person. I was more of a depression person but anxiety ruined my life. How am I gonna live with this?

I was physically and mentally doing well until a day in last times of March, where I strained too much on bathroom. (I lost 25kgs in 3-4 months by starving so my bowel movements became pretty bad) I strained too much that I got tachycardia, facial spasms, weird headaches that lasted for a month. (I used beta blokers then I got fine) I went to cardiologists and they told me I am fine, I went to a neurologist (he made me get an eeg and it was clear) I also went to internal medicine, started taking vitamin D and Magnesium supplements along with some IBS/reflux medicine. Every doctor I went to told me go into a psychiatrist and I did. He diagnosed me with F41.2 (Mixed Anxiety Depressive Disorder, I had this diagnosis before) and F42 (OCD, this is a new one but Ik I had it) He told me to come after 10 days for a check in.

I started taking 6 drops of Norodol, Zedprex 25mg, and Cedrina 20mg. I didn’t take Cedrina since it was mostly for sleep.

For the check in day, I told him I don’t have any changes and he told me to take Xanax. Half dose for mornings, half dose for nights. So I got Xanax and OH MY GOD… I started to understand why people do drugs. He told me to use XANAX for 10 days and told me to call him. I called him after 10 days and I actually got better on Xanax. I even started studying, reading books, taking walks etc but after lowering my dose I started to have health anxiety and my OCD got so much worse. I keep thinking about I have deadly disease’s that I cannot focus on daily life and all I do is scroll. I can’t even find the energy to play games or do things I like all I do is hyperfixate on aches and googling them. Will it get better? (I am currently on week 3 for zedprex, and week 4 for norodol)