Binge eating disorder is ruining my life, and I'm only 17. Seeking advice please.
For some background, I am a 17 year old who has had binge eating problems for atleast 7 years (I can't remember much past then). I feel disgusting, worthless, and horrible in my own body. Over half the clothes in my closet I can't wear because they look terrible on me. I have probably spent nearly a thousand bucks of my own money on gimmicky scam weight loss products that havent worked. Nobody else in my family has these struggles and I feel alone. I feel "addicted" to food. I think about it all the time from the moment I wake up the moment I go to sleep. I wish I could just eat like a normal person, not obsess over food, listen to my natural hunger signals, and have a peaceful intuitive relationship with food. I have been trying to lose fat (can't say weight or itll get flagged apparently) for so long and each time I just end up caving in to my urges. I am coming to the end of my rope. I wanted to get on some type of weight loss suppressant like wegovy, mounjaro, or even ozempic, but my doctor told me my BMI wasn't high enough. I am not sure the root cause of my binge eating but I know it keeps me entertained and cures my boredom. It offers me a distraction from my current challenges and in general just provides me with instant comfort and satisfaction. Unfortunately I haven't found any healthy alternatives to binge eating to deal with my boredom and provide comfort. Nothing gives me the same hit of dopamine like eating does. Journaling and walking, sure, they're nice, but they don't even compete with eating. If you also struggle with binge/comfort/boredom eating I am curious what helped you overcome it.