Boyfriend of seven years ghosted me 10days before my neet pg 🙏
We were together since first year of my mbbs (he was one year my senior) mind you he was the one who chased me endlessly and obsessively because some stupid boys of my class made some list about junior girls and wrote my name in it (F you guys honestly) and handed it over to seniors. It was a stupid tradition in our college.
I really hatéd him for chasing me, but there was this instant spark. That you just cannot resist.
I really wasnt looking for a relationship or anything but he was just relentless.
We fell in love so hard it was astronomical.
He joined his residency this year so he is JR1 currently, I took a drop year after my internship to prepare for neet pg.
He was my first serious boyfriend, everyone knew about us both our parents even our relatives, we had no problems- great understanding, great chemistry till he completely stopped giving a shit soon after joining his residency.
If we ever fought he made no efforts whatsoever to clear the misunderstanding we would go days or weeks without talking to each other because he would refuse to initiate a single text, I was always the one initiating a text or a call.
He was great during college days, didn’t even talk to any girl except me, was caring, completely honest, dependable, trustworthy didn’t even give me a single reason to be disappointed ever, all our days revolved around each other, not a single day would go by without talking to each other.
I trusted him completely and thought Id marry him one day (both of us discussed about it extensively) even our families started to discuss about it at some point.
Both our families were on good terms with each other.
I carried on till he stopped giving a shit completely—if i didn’t call or message we would go days without talking,
A few days ago I called him up panicking about it, that why he didn’t make an effort to call or text anymore —his response was to let him sleep as he has an early morning shift next day.
I never bothered him during his shifts, we didn’t have late night chats or calls anymore because I KNEW and UNDERSTOOD how brutal pg shifts are, I tried to be as understanding as someone could be.
I was so so so devastated i was crying and throwing up from the anxiety crying on the call and everything——he just said to let him sleep 😴 and went back to sleep.
I waited the next day or the day after that.
Nothing.
He didn’t message or call me, mind you he was going out to the movies going about his days normally, it seems he just forgot one random day that I exist after 7 fucking years.
The end.
Now I have to deal with a nasty life altering breakup 10 days before my exam and I cant deal with shit.
It feels like I built my nervous system brick by brick around him in past 7 years, like I wouldn’t know emotions like happiness and contentment if he was not by my side.
I am unable to revise anything and dissociating so hard since past few days, there is this astronomical weight in my chest that just wouldn’t lift no matter what.
Also its like I brought this upon myself, things were going bad since last few months but i chose these specific crucial days to chase him out and let shit hit the fan
How the fuck people move on from a 7 year long commitment like its nothing?