u/rosecaravan

I’ve been in a custody battle for a year against my ex who decided after a year and a half and a new girlfriend that he wanted 50/50 custody.

Because the reason we broke up was due to heavy violence this has been a hard year filled with evidence I didn't want to have to go through.

I just came back from my final hearing. It was uneventful, some conclusions were exchanged and evidence was turned in. The whole hearing probably lasted 20 minutes.

I expected to feel relief to close this chapter (we don't get the results for another month). But instead I feel completely devastated. Depressed. Exhausted. Almost grieving.

Why do I feel like this? We don't have any results yet, so there's no reason for me to feel this sad.