I want to give my armenian teacher a nice present and I know how to crochet the toy in the picture, I did some research and I found that the ram is a folk symbol of strength in some countries of the region, but I couldn't found much information about Armenia.
if it doesn't has any sort of meaning for the Armenian culture, do you have any recommendations?
she broke up with me last December after three years of dating. it was kinda of messy and I knew that she made her decision out of anger and impulse, and for the reasons she gave me, a lot of them were things that could be easily fixed in the relationship. At the end I told her that I don't agree with her and that I am offended because it felt like she was disrespecting our time together with such a big decision over something simple.
The first month was absolutely horrible, I stayed drunk for the most of it, barely eating, feeling so heartbroken and disposable etc etc but the next months were slightly better by the pass of time.
And now, she texted me last week, with a two hour long audio. It was about the things I told her that were easy to fix in the relationship, she recognised a lot of her failures, and admitted that she doesn't know if she made the right decision of breaking up with me, that it hurts a lot and that she still loves me, it was in general nice, so I answered her, but then her answers started becoming passive aggressive and I cut it. She is an angry woman (she wasn't abusive, she was just very immature with poor emotional management), I know her well, and I know that the conversation was moving towards a fight, which is completely pointless and draining at this point, I said my goodbyes after the few exchanges of messages, she said goodbye too and that was it.
I thought I was fine, it wasn't so bad talking to her, but now I feel more sensitive, I cry more often than I used to, I feel like I have taken a couple steps back in the process. I wasn't expecting this amount of emotions, and now I found myself thinking about messaging her just to let her know that her actions are messing me up, I should be allowed to do whatever I want too, she broke up with me and then can't leave me the fuck alone. Maybe I am a little angry, but I am more sad than angry, a part of me wishes she never left me, I don't even want to get back together, but I wish the whole thing never happened, and that is a thought that I only used to have the first couple of months, and is pissing me off that I am thinking that way again, it hurts and I am tired of hurting.
I just don't know how to get back to the mentality that I was before she reached out to me.
this plushie was really fun to make, pattern by creativesquishy_ on Instagram!